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time just passed 8  months only...i still need to wait another 2 years to live with him..=( i really love you...please do not  leave me... last time when i was in high school and form 1, i have a boyfriend too. i got hurt quite badly and he disappointed me. So,  I tell myself do not get into a relationship until I finish study... I have been single around 3 years since high school. Now, I'm 18 years old and I really love this boy. I really do not want him to leave me like that. Even though, we have not meet yet but I keep thinking just awhile only. I hope he can wait for me too. The problem now is I cannot go to his place NOW! IT'S MY SEMESTER BREAK! I cried whole night thinking 'why my parent just do not want me to go and visit my beloved???' They do not know that I have a boyfriend. then my mum keeps asking me to study 1st. Not easy to get a kind boy okey. He is seriously my type. Whenever I feel sad or lonely, he is always there for me. He did not even count anyt...

i still do not know what i need right now... right now and right now..=( i really need someone beside me... but i still do not know what is that or who is that... it's suffering... something or someone is not beside me right now... i feel so hurtful and lonely.. my life now.. something or someone is missing from me.. =( something or someone important... i am still waiting and figuring out what or who is that... * God...please bring me to the thing i need as fast as possible...can or not???* it's very very painful...and torturing...T___T something or someone is very far away from me.. everyday i dream about it... but i still can feel it's still very blur.... i really want to know... i really want to feel... i really want to hold... maybe i need someone who i loved... this feeling is very torturing....suffering...painful... whenever i see things related to me... my heart will just drop... T____T i want... i want...... i want......... make it don't leave me....pleaseee....