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hmm... sometimes we need to ignore those who only always think themselves... how many times you tell them what you don't like, they still want to do it.. these kind of people sometimes need to be ignore... i don't know why got such people in this world=.='' why they can't understand another person's feelings.... they should understand that, if another person do something they don't like, probably it's because they did to that person before... not to say that person want to get revenge... is that that person want to show how it feels when getting into that situation... I, myself... i really hope I have friends and family who can understand my feelings... what I don't like, I will say out directly... whether it is hurtful or not, at least I am telling the truth.. I am not lying... I want people to know me more as well as I want to know them more... How I tell them, if they still remain the same, then i give up... I really give up.. why??...

i was wondering all the time.... some people are acting to treating me good... some people are acting to treating me bad... i don't know why... i just don't know why.. and..what somemore.... some people you know, they just don't remember you... how cruel are they.... can forget friends.... yet act as don't know you... some people you know, and they know you, they ask you to forget them...you think very easy??? you haven't get it, so you haven't feel it.... some people you want to keep in touch with them back, first thing they will always ask.... 'who are you' some pretend... some really forget... i wondering.... if i myself can remember friends so easily... why people can't remember their friends as well??? do they cherish friendship??? i don't know.. i just want to tell everyone... if you yourself always forget your old or lost friend, and also the friends who are always caring for you, always remember them... most of th...

now is what time....... another 6 more hours i will be having exam again..=.='' wish me good luck.. i just feel like want to play... i don't know why... =0='' it's ok.. must stand it.... i heard that my mother told my brother, if i cannot go through this semester than i straight change course, don't waste time??? oh my god... how leh??? i only suitable for music.. but the thing is music is expensive.. =.='' creative arts also can.. but not as music.... what about IT... hmm..i also don't know larh.... i am just not the study type... =( hmm.... i also blur now... my mind has many things.. please go out from my mind for this few weeks.. i want to concentrate and after exam finish, i need to cope up my other subjects... oh, i am very scare.. but my feelings ask me to not study..=( i want to study..i want to get at least diploma... =( my mind want to study..but my feelings/heart don't want...=.= howwwwwwww..... someone please hel...

do you know how much I need you??? when you are away, thousand feelings are in my heart, I couldn't count how much I miss you, please don't go away my baby, i am willing to wait here until you come back, do you know, do you know, there are uncountable boys in this world, but I only love you, when my heart says, I love you (name of person) please come back, please come back to me... I have been waiting for so long, why are you still disappear from my life??? I couldn't stop thinking of you, and wondering why I am such a fool, still wanting you all the time, let me ask you something, is these my mistakes??? my heart smash like a glass fall on the floor, do you know, do you know, how it feels, how pain is it, without you beside me, i still can feel a million miles away, why why why??? because when the rain drops, i am telling you that i miss you, because when the wind blows, i am telling you that i want you, because when the thunder strikes, i am telli...

suddenly think of blogging... hmm... why suddenly think of him again.=.='' now i am very confuse... lol... but nevermind... just let it go... i don't want to post here, if not someone will kill me... well... today very busy... hang out with family... want to see my pictures, can go to my profile in facebook and see.. Mickey Jayin Gan go to that link, can see my profile already.. hehe.. it's all public... =) very happy can hang out with family... luckily my family is good... xD hmm... i wonder why i want to blog now.. just feel like blogging... my feelings want to release something, but don't know why cannot release here.... =( now i become single.... i can like anyone... but how come i feel different now... =.='' different as in my feeling stuck already..lol... i hope this time my exam will be better a lot... can get good results.... i really hope God is helping me... God bless me.. i love you.... and another half more hour is my da...

i don't know whether i should do this or not... it seems hard to do.. it seems easy to say... =.='' but i am a bad decision maker... so i don't know this is a right or wrong decision...=.='' hmm... i thought of changing my life.... changing my life... as in don't play facebook anymore.. just see whether my friend got post anything in facebook... like online for 5 minutes like that.. but it seems hard to do... (i told you that already) hmm.... i used to online is msn messenger.. never had a facebook account before.. until my good friend told me that facebook was a good social network, therefore, i made my mind to sign up.. =.='' give it a try you know..lol.. but.. i didn't know it is so addictive.. haizz... my results were getting worst now.. i thought of changing my life.. not to play facebook anymore...i want to go back my past.... but my friends told me that going back to the past, means i am not ready for the present and futu...

when i am soft to people, they will step on me; I will feel myself hurt... when i am hard to people, they say i cruel; I will feel myself bad... i wonder...what you want me to be NOW.... == sometimes i angry i swallow it only... sometimes i sad i swallow it only... what's your problem??? can't you see my patient??? i learn how to be patient.. because want to maintain friendship... i don't know what kind of people nowadays.. always think they do things are right.. ya i always wrong.. i got admit.. what about people??? some people just never realize.. =.='' sometimes i too angry only release my feelings.. sometimes i too sad only release my feelings... who are you to control me... when you are angry, you sure release your feelings also.. same goes to sad mood... don't keep saying me... i being patient.. i just swallow it.. if i 100% cannot stand anymore, i will be really hard...if not harsh.. don't say i bad.. you should know what had y...

hmm..i can feel that... life is like a tree.... do you know why??? the tree grow up slowly... we also grow up slowly... then the tree become bigger... we also become bigger... then what??? the trees give out oxygen... we give out carbon dioxide... hehe then as the tree getting older and older... the leaves falls... as for we, human, when we grow older and older, our age become more and more, not only that... our hair will drop, our system in our body will be slower... a lot of things happens... =.='' why i can come out these words all.... >< hmm...just want to put some words here... i may drop and cry, people might laugh at me, but no matter what happens, i sure climb and smile, i cannot just stay like this, i know there is something waiting for me. just that i don't want the world to end... i still need my family... i want to do many things in my life.. i want to experience everything... i really wish to.. =) anyways, now is very late... g...

why this world so cruel wan... =( why so heartless... =( whenever i say something about people, they just can bad mouth me like that... ever even think about my feelings first... why like that de??? =( whenever i want to talk to them, they just use one word ( as though they don't want to talk to me) =( why can't they use more words...=( why like that de??? =( whenever they need help only become so nice to me... didn't know they are like that.... =( when they don't need me, but i need them, they don't even bother.. =( why like that de??? i share around my things with people.. but what i got....i got nothing in return... =( i ask help also no one help....=( why like that de....???=( people so selfish... i want to be selfish also cannot... why i so generous de... =( everything also say yes yes yes... if i do abit cruel thing i feel so so so guilty. and when i come back home, i sure tell my mummy that i done wrong thing and go temple do good...

sometimes things change.. i wonder myself when i was young.. what i want to be when i grow up... i thought of becoming a doctor... because i can save people life.. but what... i scare of blood when i getting older..don't know why..== whenever i see blood, i sure run away.. lol.. then now i study accounting.. not my interest.. i wanted to be someone famous.. like singers.. but i dont know i can do it or not.. that's my interest..i wanted to write lyrics... make people have fun and enjoy their life... just that i don't know how to start.. == i wanted to end this course faster.. but the time go so slow... since i meet this boy.... i suddenly like him so much.. i don't know why.. but i know we are not mean to  be together.. fate ran away....he might has a girlfriend now.. =( or maybe single.. =) lol.. (so bad lorh me.. =P) i know that... first feeling sure will remember the feeling.... i don't know when only i can forget him.... first come.. firs...

i just found out a lot of instruments... i really love them so much.. the music... fuyoh.... when sleep on my bed.. fuyoh fuyoh man.. straight go into my dream.. LOL....=P how nice if i can really make my own music... when ah??? i want faster finish my accounting course.. fai ti fai ti.. xD sometimes i can feel hurtful feelings... sometimes happy.... sometimes i think of the memories back... =3 hehe... so shy shy.. xD... i wonder... i keep wondering... where i will go in future??? 0.0 my college canteen also open already.... i want snowflakes... i want i want i want.... why still not yet open..i want to eat... lol... i wonder how much the price.if cheaper then good.. (y) lol =P hmm... marrybrown...one of my friend like wor... maybe i will bring her..^O^ we go together and eat lorh... but i don't know how much wor.. i hope everything is cheaper than outside.. hehe... hmm.... exam is just around the corner... i have to work hard... work hard. then can fin...

wow. exam coming already.... i already plan my timetable, schedule and all those larh..haha... i need to be more and more and more and super more hardworking... i don't know why my results getting worst and worst... but i still need to try right??? still not end of the world yet... some people said 21st december 2012 is end of the world..lol i don't know..  i just do my own work.. ^O^ i feel so headache and stomach pain..don't know why.. and and and i put private blog for these few days, because i need to release some feelings... hurtful feelings.. but i already removed.. now i put public back... just that i hope that i post anything in my blog... please don't assume that i bad mouth or talking the past.. it's just my feelings.. let me release... i want to release my own feelings here.. not in facebook, not in twitter, not in everywhere.. this blog is about my life... i should write all my daily life happenings... that is the meaning of blog... wr...

everytime i think too much, sure head pain wan.. don't know why these few days my stomach and head very pain... why o... =( i not enough rest or what??? is it i miss him too much??? =.='' sometimes i got go to his profile, but nothing I can do. =( haizz... why i still like him.... why and why......=.='' can't i like other boys??? why my feelings still hold back??? aiyoo.... i don't know how to face relationship in future lorh... what if i love a boy so much until cannot forget him??? if let's say that if i marry already..i have a husband.. if he is suddenly gone or divorce me.. what i will do??? how is my feelings??? ='( i don't know... =( i hope and wish that if i get a boyfriend and marry him in future.. i want him to love me, take me, cherish me for who am I forever... together work hard, together play, together eat, together fight, together argue, together smile, together laugh, together cook... and whatever also together......

sometimes, people don't understand other people's feelings... they want to do what thing, they just do... why can't they understand that person feelings??? can't they feel??? hurt??? angry??? sad??? depress??? or whatever??? some of them feel it before also want to do it again... never think of other people feelings... seriously i am feeling now... so hurt... so hurt and so hurt... why people don't understand my feelings wan.. when i truly love that person, that person never appreciate... when i treat a person good, that person go over my head... why??? but if i treat that person bad, he/she will say i bad girl... then what you want me to do??? everything also cannot... this and that i do and say also cannot.. i just release my feelings only ma.. also cannot meh??? if cannot say out here, then what should i do??? keep inside my heart??? let my heart suffer??? i don't want my life to be so short.. i want to live longer... i want to take care...

exams coming, but it's fall around christmas and happy new year.. ='( somemore.. my exam results also so bad this time.. what is wrong with me??? ='( i never put enough effort??? i don't know... i just think of quitting this course, but i cannot... i have to think of my parents feelings also... i scare they angry if i keep failing.. ='( i scare they say me useless... what should i do??? i have no more road to go..='( no one can help me.. V_V i help myself so much already.. but  why still the same?? ='( hmm... i must try to work harder and harder.. maybe change strategy.... ^O^ hmm..='( hopefully my parents don't angry of me... haizzz.. sad.... =( this year really is a terrible year for me.. so many negative things happened to me.. how nice if i go back to 2011... i love that year...

i went to wrong road, wrong way... but i did not blame anyone... at first, i blamed my mummy... she is the one who always said that Accounting good for me... what good things??? she replied... good for future.. good for family's budget...( if my future husband don't know about accounting stuff) lol =P good to know the whole world economics.. and whatsoever larh.. haha..=P i was naive... i just listen to her... then.. i have this boy.. which is my long lost friend... actually he was my boyfriend before.. he also in accounting course.. he promised me to study together until graduate.. but he left me..yup...of course i am very sad.... then i also blame him for not commit this promise.. =( i was so so so so naive.. my brain so immature... always listen to others... what i got after that??? do you know??? now i am suffering...no one knows...i mean outside people.. only my family know it.. i am suffering... finishing this accounting course.. because i told ...

i remembered it was on Monday... hehe... i woke up early to get MCD free Egg McMuffin burger.. fuyoh, i still can imagine, so many people are lining up... i am the 0117 person.. ^O^ i still can get... then i go to ampang park and take one more.. =P that is for my lunch... weeeee..i never spend money for that day... ehh...got... only rm1.. lol... for the drinks.. =P xD at ampang park, i was 0438, heh i still remember... very nice day lorh... i with my sister... lol.. she is so funny... why i can get a friend who is so funny... lol i got another friend also funny... haha.. both of them also funny... lol... and sun newspaper got free MCD burger... later i will take too...i want to take but no time to take.. =( i usually take for my daddy wan... hmm =( if i know i take.. hurm... anyways, got to study now... i will blog later.... =)

sometimes there is a happiness... sometimes there is a sadness.... human cannot be always happy... human cannot be always sad.... you know??? human is 50%... that's why they are not perfect... if you accept the person you love... then accept him or her 50%.... don't let go that person until you feel that he or she is not suitable with you... but try your best no matter what... you might not miss the boat... treasure those people beside you... if you have anything, just tell him or her... do not lie, do not ignore, and do not hurt.... i want to experience more... but i am not fully grown yet.... this is what i learnt so far... and never look down at people... because one day they are up there.... you will realize and regret.... the thing that you can't change... what do you think??? time.... what you is already over... you cannot reverse...so be careful on your own actions.. sorry is not really can cure people... promises is not mean to be bre...

these few days don't know why i can dream so many bad things... why o??? is it i too tired of doing assignment and study for test... or thinking and dreaming the boy i love too much??? lol... you know what i dream??? i dream about people killing about another person.. -_-'' i also don't know why i can dream like this.. and also... this afternoon... when i come back from The Curve, i asleep on my parents bed.. and i suddenly dream until cannot wake up.. i don't know how to manage it.. then i jump out from the bed... thinking that i should study for my test... suddenly don't have mood... then the mood come back.. it is like these few days i have different feelings.. something is going to happen to me.. i don't know what is it.. i hope everything will be fine... everyone will be ok.... i just have day dream.... now i have to go study for my test tomorrow... tomorrow is a tough day... passing up my assignment, test.. and results out... =( w...

most of everyone here asking me to forget about you.. but i still cannot forget you.. i keep my feelings inside... i don't know when only you realize that this girl actually wants you.. err..where are you now??? sleeping??? i am not desperate in having you.. just that... how can i forget you??? you told me that we are not mean to be together.. but i don't think so.. some people from overseas, they can be together in the end.. i don't understand.. i don't know when is my fate coming.. but i hope i don't suffer anymore... i don't like suffering... my heart hurts when i think about you.. i want to forget you... but my feelings told me don't.. my mind told me don't... why??? i don't know... they keep on reminding me of you... arghh..this is what i don't like... i also don't know why i like you so much.. maybe our memories i cannot forget??? actually i forget most of it already.. but why i still like you??? i don't know.....

i don't care how people see me... just let me tell everyone.. i am not desperate having boyfriend.. i just have deep feelings for this boy... i always hope he will come back to my side... i keep on waiting for him no matter what.. just that, i hope he will find me back one day.. i really like him... i really love him... actually i thought of giving up... i tried my super best... more than 100% but still cannot... sometimes will think back about him... i felt very depress.. no one will understand my feelings.. why??? some people never experience before.. but one of my friend, her name is Natalie.. she understands my feelings... i feel happy when she gave me directions now i want to wish someone... i don't know why i still love him... do you know what is his name??? his name is Ronald Liang... his full name is Ronald Tan Liang... i really love him... he stays in Penang... i know i did many wrong things to him... sometimes i got control him... for example, ...

another 3 more days... it will be my saddest day... i don't want to say out.. if i say out, it will not come true... i will just talk inside my heart... maybe on that day..i will post something nice here for someone... i wish that 'someone' will be happy on that day... enjoy the day... i hope i can feel that person happiness too.. i also hope that person will come back to me one day... i can't stop thinking of that person... another 3 more days.. now the time goes so slow.. i want it to be fast... it's already november... and currently i am not feeling well.. i don't mind,i still want to do something in 3 days time.. i don't care what people think about me.. this is my life... my mind think a lots of things... but i am focusing on my career as well... i know who am I already... pray for me... all  the best for myself... love you... =)

hey.... listen this... =) doesn't mean that i am good to you, i like you... doesn't mean that i am hiding something from you, i am lying you... doesn't mean that i like playing with you, i got feelings for you.... doesn't mean that my words to you are true...it might be false... doesn't mean that my actions show that i am ignoring you, you don't like it... i might be busy... wanting to achieve my career... i... don't like... selfish people... selfish people as in always think for another person only... and don't really bother of someone else unless that person go somewhere else... sometimes, bare in mind... i don't like people making plan B... because it is like a lie.... but it's ok....people do plan B, why can't I do??? =) this is people life... so my life also can be like this.... what people do to me, i sure will do it back.. it's not i bad.... some people has two faces... in front of you, they are so good... but behind...

i was in the air... flying for you.... wondering are you still over there... ^O^ i missed you so much like a rain falling down to the earth.... for thousand years i have been waiting.... you silently come to see me, but i didn't realize... sometimes people might misunderstand... but i do not mind, i wish i can let my feelings to be like this all the time... happy face divide sad face equal neutral face.... the feeling of missing you is the same thing... where have you been??? i am still hugging you from the start to the end.... holding you every night like a baby.. wishing that i can't let you go... i like i like and i like. ^O^ and now i am still awake... because my feelings still feel confused... take care everyone... i am just confessing my feelings to everyone..=) good nights to everyone.. ^O^

i don't know how people's attitude and behaviour nowadays... sometimes i cannot bare it anymore... some people might just think of themselves first... they might never realize how is other people feelings.. ok now... i am going to say this before i go do my work.. why can't people understand their attitude and behaviour... i cannot believe some of them never think they were wrong until they did it... this is called what??? people giving advise, we should listen.. but some people just think they are correct.. they never learn... i don't know why... people do this that in public, people scold them... but they just can't realize.. they also think they are correct... those people are giving advise, and say for your own good... sometimes, people will think of his/her girlfriend/boyfriend first instead of parents.. leaving parents behind is not a good thing... i have learnt since last year... family only will care for you no matter what happens... friends...

. BRAIN  D AMAGING HABITS     1.No Breakfast. People who do not take breakfast are going to have a lower blood sugar level. This leads to an insufficient supply of nutrients to the brain causing brain degeneration. 2.Overeating. It causes hardening of the brain arteries, leading to a decrease in mental power. 3.Smoking It causes multiple brain shrink age and may lead to Alzheimer disease. 4.High Sugar consumption. Too much sugar will interrupt the absorption of proteins and nutrients causing malnutrition and may interfere with brain development. 5.Air Pollution. The brain is the largest oxygen consumer in our 20 body. Inhaling polluted air decreases the supply of oxygen to the brain, bringing about a decrease in brain efficiency. 6.Sleep Deprivation. Sleep allows our brain to rest... Long term deprivation from sleep will accelerate the death of brain cells... 7.Head covered whi...

sometimes we must not let people to go on top of your head.. they want you to accompany them when they are alone or feel lonely.. sometimes they will sms or call you... sometimes they will sms a few times if you don't reply on the spot... sometimes even worst... when you don't reply, they will call you... and what??? when they are with other people... they don't even bother you... no sms, no call.. nothing... totally empty.... what is this called??? when a person need you, then just inform you.. don't need you, then just ignore you... what kind of person is this.... i don't care whoever read here.. many people is treating me like this nowadays... i think i also need to do like this... people don't really care my feelings.. fine.. i also don't care your feelings... how you feel if you were me??? better you go your own life, and i go mine right??? and another thing... when people need help , they will ask for help... they are being s...

Let me start my words before i begin... ^O^ feelings is through your heart, vision is through your eyes, smell is through your nose, taste is through your mouth hearing is through your ear, the soul is surround you. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The tears flow through the eyes.. When it is so obvious to be seen.. The vision of the shadow has turn darker and darker.. Since when I can see you from the sky, The clock is still flying, How I wish I can stop all the time, To see you Again, Once glance, my heart is beating faster and faster, I am not sure whether I have the real feelings for you, I do not want to make the same mistakes again The rain has flows to much in my heart, Wondering my heart still can afford to get hurt, But I wish there is someone always right there for me I wish I am not in the fairytales anymore Because I had fallen in love for you:) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ make the right choice in your life.. how??? listen to your soul, your eyes ...

(Okay, o-o-okay, okay, o-o-okay) I couldn't live without you, no. Couldn't see myself without you but it's over now. I'm lost when I'm without you, yeah. My heart just doesn't beat the same, I ain't got no one to blame. And when I'm alone, I tell myself, I'll make it on my own. Like the lyrics of a sad song, Mine was feeling so wrong. If you could only hear the words I say. When your heart beats beside me. Without you, I can finally, I just want to hear you say that you'll be okay. You'll be okay. (Okay, o-o-okay, okay, o-o-okay) If I could turn back to us (Mm, oh) Then maybe I could change the way I was. Just to prove it to us, I can be all the man you need. And you're still the only woman for me. And when I'm alone, I tell myself, I'll make it on my own. Like the lyrics of a sad song, Mine was feeling so wrong. If you could only hear the words I say. When your heart beats beside me. Without you, I can finally, I just want to he...

i really don't like conflicts... i don't know how to handle myself in any situations.. i feel myself useless.. but i now i know how to handle myself... i wish i could success in the future... i have to work hard... i want to delete every bad things... bad things that make people misunderstand me.. bad things that i accidentally hurt people... i should improve myself... my counselor told me.. i have no problem in living alone... i can be lonely because music accompany me music can be my best friend... although i cannot accept what i have learn today from my counselor.. but she is doing this for my own good.. so i must take her advice... wish me good luck ya.... God bless you all. =)

i get from my daddy.. ^O^ hope you all like it.. =P When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with,never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've every had. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back! Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours.It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone,an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone,but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. Don't go for looks; they can deceive.Don' t go for wealth;...

i wish i can hear your voice again... i wish i can celebrate your coming birthday.... when is your birthday??? 13th November.... i still remember.... i wonder where are you now.... i still cannot forget you.... i keep on bury our memories into the deep deep sea... i want to keep nicely and put into my deep deep heart.... but it is too swallow until it makes me keep remembering... haha.... let's count how many days to your birthday... now is 29th october 2012 - 13th november 2012.. 3 days + 13 days = 15 days.. 15 days more to your birthday... how i wish i can tell you this... ' happy birthday =D ' you might forget me now, but i still remember you... i just wish to forget you because you told me to forget and forgive you.... =) i am happy and also sad... many things make me happy now.. and many things make me sad now... how i wish i can share this with you, we usually share things eventhough it is bad or good.... i will just wait until your birthday... s...

today is my last day work.... i worked for 4 weeks.. i worked for 8 days... it's tiring but i have a wonderful experience.. just that i need the money to support myself.. and i have a lot of pressure actually... =( now my parents asked me to don't work anymore... but i still want... just that not now...hehehe... it's nice to work.. but sometimes people bully you =( anyways i don't bother anymore because i am not working there anymore..=P now my plan was start doing revision this week... i don't know what can i do.... but i think that i should spend more time in my studies.. i don't know my sister will come with me or not... i just don't want to spend my time with unnecessary  things already.. my mind is very messy now.. so i don't know what to say... i just want to achieve my diploma certificate and go for another thing... well..i am too tired and sleepy... good nights... later i have to wake up and study... because later got exam.....

you think you very great is it??? when you sms me, then i never reply, you tell me that I have to reply your sms or call... your face is like a piece of shit... i am very angry now... i have to say this all.. and what??? when i sms you, you didn't reply... and just only you said that you got read my sms??? then why you never reply me??? AM I A GOD??? do i know you are reading my sms??? and this is last minute... why today ( saturday) only you call me??? I sms you on Tuesday.... and now is what day??? Saturday....!! you count from Tuesday to Saturday -->5 days.... you are so busy??? haaa... i guess not all the time??? why you cannot reply my sms??? you think you are bigger than me??? so what if now I am SPM holder??? you don't think I haven't success yet, you can look down at me... if you reply me earlier, there is no misunderstanding... if i know, i should have call you... stupid agent... i am not wrong neither correct.... you should have replied me......