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i get from my daddy.. ^O^ hope you all like it.. =P When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with,never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've every had. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back! Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours.It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone,an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone,but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. Don't go for looks; they can deceive.Don' t go for wealth;...

i wish i can hear your voice again... i wish i can celebrate your coming birthday.... when is your birthday??? 13th November.... i still remember.... i wonder where are you now.... i still cannot forget you.... i keep on bury our memories into the deep deep sea... i want to keep nicely and put into my deep deep heart.... but it is too swallow until it makes me keep remembering... haha.... let's count how many days to your birthday... now is 29th october 2012 - 13th november 2012.. 3 days + 13 days = 15 days.. 15 days more to your birthday... how i wish i can tell you this... ' happy birthday =D ' you might forget me now, but i still remember you... i just wish to forget you because you told me to forget and forgive you.... =) i am happy and also sad... many things make me happy now.. and many things make me sad now... how i wish i can share this with you, we usually share things eventhough it is bad or good.... i will just wait until your birthday... s...

today is my last day work.... i worked for 4 weeks.. i worked for 8 days... it's tiring but i have a wonderful experience.. just that i need the money to support myself.. and i have a lot of pressure actually... =( now my parents asked me to don't work anymore... but i still want... just that not now...hehehe... it's nice to work.. but sometimes people bully you =( anyways i don't bother anymore because i am not working there anymore..=P now my plan was start doing revision this week... i don't know what can i do.... but i think that i should spend more time in my studies.. i don't know my sister will come with me or not... i just don't want to spend my time with unnecessary  things already.. my mind is very messy now.. so i don't know what to say... i just want to achieve my diploma certificate and go for another thing... well..i am too tired and sleepy... good nights... later i have to wake up and study... because later got exam.....

you think you very great is it??? when you sms me, then i never reply, you tell me that I have to reply your sms or call... your face is like a piece of shit... i am very angry now... i have to say this all.. and what??? when i sms you, you didn't reply... and just only you said that you got read my sms??? then why you never reply me??? AM I A GOD??? do i know you are reading my sms??? and this is last minute... why today ( saturday) only you call me??? I sms you on Tuesday.... and now is what day??? Saturday....!! you count from Tuesday to Saturday -->5 days.... you are so busy??? haaa... i guess not all the time??? why you cannot reply my sms??? you think you are bigger than me??? so what if now I am SPM holder??? you don't think I haven't success yet, you can look down at me... if you reply me earlier, there is no misunderstanding... if i know, i should have call you... stupid agent... i am not wrong neither correct.... you should have replied me......

i wonder what is real feelings now... feeling different.... just now only i download 'love story in harvard' i watched last time de... but I want to watch again... i want to feel the love back.... i scare my feelings will go away...=.='' i love this drama so much... =) just that i don't want to go back the past... but just that... i have to continue my life.... so i want to watch this back.. hehehe... my type... i usually keep things all by own.. i keep everything in my heart wan.. i don't want let people know.. why??? i don't want to let them worry... i want everyone to be happy...last time i thought i have everything, that's why i am so arrogant.. doesn't care of people feelings much... i want to practice myself to build my emotions and feelings... any trouble...i have to face by my own..... when i sad, i just keep in my heart... happy also keep in my heart.... i hope that i can depend on my own... whether i am with my parents, i want the...

which one I want to say first??? happy or sad??? maybe i should say sad first.. lol.. today when i was working... this lady so rude to me... i feel like slapping her... do you know what she said??? ' shut up and go and do your work' this kind of people, never think before they talk to people, are so so no educated... simply talk like no one business... simply talk like no feelings... never care people's feelings.... arghh.. if she say one more time, she is gonna get it from me... she don't know my words can make her sad... muahaha...=.= then.... my supervisor told me to take pictures, but the guardian staff said cannot... because she scare her boss will angry and also scare that thought we steal their product... haizz... then my mummy keep scolding me... until now... for so many hours..i told her already, nevermind larh.. just don't care... but she stil nagging... everyone looking at me... =( so sad... i just keep quiet only.... although i don't li...

still loving you... i hope that everyday can be a better day... i hope that everyday can be a easier day... no need angry, no need sad, no need happy, no need laugh... lol.... just neutral cannot meh??? who say rich people are always happy??? and who say poor people are always sad??? most important is love ma.. i just wondering something.. but don't want to say here.. later people misunderstand... how can i afford to take care of you when i can't even take care of myself??? am i right??? since now i am already single... i thought of going to do something different in my life... i don't know whether my mind is telling me the truth... ^O^ but i hope so... ^O^ then i can yay yay yay.. =P LOL now waiting for my baby... lol.. not boyfriend...is my close friend... ^O^ she has class now.... i am so free... so do blogging lorh... when i am at home... sometimes no online lorh... alot of things to do.. i have to keep myself busy... if not sure remember back the pa...

after lecture at 4pm, jie jie, mummy and I went to CITC... haha... jie jie and I photostate those tutorial answers... hmm.... then suddenly late de, mummy dump us... so sad... :'( fine lorh... lol... then jie jie and I went to KLCC lorh.... ^O^ we jalan jalan so fun, so nice.... before that we went to masjid jamek... then suddenly feel like going to KLCC.... what I told her was.... all the people who are here(KLCC) is rich people... LOL so we are consider rich people.. hahaha... just kidding larh... we never buy anything... we just walk around.... very fun... =P then when come back... haha.. my whole family and I went to one utama and eat Auntie's Anne... OMG... seriously so worth.. my gor gor got 50% discount.... so nice... can be my dinner.. =P hoho... then i ate sushi also.. weeeee.. not sushi king.. =( but just the Aeon sushi.. nice also lorh... ^O^ because sushi king got many people there.. so i just say don't waste time larh.. haha... anyways, today very f...

Now only i realize...I guess you just treating me as a 3rd party...Not daughter or sister:'( if not, why you keep saying 3rd party to me??? From first time we met, i treated you as my sister...how can you do this to me??? :'( i don't know about your boyfriend whether he is treating me as 3rd party, BUT i treated him as my brother also... To tell you the truth, i got dream of other boy nowadays.. I can see how he looks like but in real life never see before.. Only couple of days i dream about my ex boyfriend..   moreover, do i look emo??? I look emo because i want to write lyrics... I want to feel the emotions.. I want to gain back my experience in music.. Because singers, composers and musicians are emotional people...i love composing music.. my mind is different from other people... you followed your feelings too much.. I can feel your boyfriend is treating me like his sister because he has no sister. I don't know whether true or not. But i can feel it. If not wh...

i don't bother how people look at me... you want to hate me then hate me.... i know there is many people out there are hating me... why??? i do not know why.. their problem...not mine... not my business... i just want to persuade my career... i do not know what i am doing now.. i am still figuring out what to do... now i need money... at least around rm500 for my resit papers and some documents it is tiring if you are working and studying... you are working as a students from mondays to fridays.. and you are working saturdays and sundays... i guess i can stand the pressure??? just that yesterday..i was very disappointed... because i helped my brother all the way... i just want to borrow him some money and i will return him back soon... but he scolded me saying i bought those documents are non-sense... fine... if you don't want to help me... then next time in future i don't want to help you already.. i will keep saying busy and busy.. how will you feel??? ...

it's hard.. O.O..really hard.. ='( now my leg is pain.. and i have to continue tomorrow... very tired... very sleepy.... but i don't feel like sleeping.. lol... what's wrong with me...=P i want play with someone... ='( but no one want play with me... ='( hmm... i think awhile more want to sleep de.... tomorrow need go out early lorh... i need to be hardworking.... yea...i need.... i am doing something important.... so yea... very tired now but i have experience.. heh heh... anyways.. good nights... and sweet dreams... how nice if i have a boyfriend.... i can play with him before sleep.... very boring ='(

i don't know i should say out.... but i couldn't stand the feeling... it's like knife cutting my heart.. every human has feelings... when i see people, i greet them... unless i never see them... but people think that i have another person, so like don't bother about them... ='( i never think like this also... why you have to think me until so bad... ='( when i see people, i talk to them.... maybe Hi... or anything lor... unless i never see them... but people said i am rude... ='( i am not rude also.. if i am rude.. my parents will not be happy... whenever i with them, i always make them laugh.... they told me i have manners... but sometimes hot temper... yes... i am hot temper when i really cannot stand... why don't i act like what people did to me??? you have somebody else.. and you just ditch me away??? leaving me alone.... and act as i am a wall to you... how can you treat me like that??? and when you need me.... you will be n...

i trusted you, but you lied me; i promise you, but you broke everything; i want to tell you something, but you leave me alone; i angry at you, but you said i hot temper; i cried for a small matter, but you said i am cry baby; let me tell you something... you know i care for you so much, why want to treat me like that... you don't know this girl so precious you... fine... those who don't appreciate me as friends... and those who feel like ditching me away because i like disturb their life.... then fine.... i won't disturb... you don't know me well.. then fine.... those people who don't appreciate me, can leave my world before we get closer.... i don't want to hurt myself anymore.. damage very pain... hurt the heart is like a knife cutting you... if i feel like that... why can't you feel it??? we are humans lar ninga... == fine.. just my thoughts and feelings.. so i want to release here.. heh heh... have a happy day.. =)

i know you told me to forget you... but these few days.... when i sleep... i just don't know why.... my mind suddenly think of you... i can see your image... and yesterday... do you know what happened??? i have nightmare....i don't know whether i want to say here or not... let me release what i am feeling right now... i feel confuse.....when i check in the net... what does it mean when you suddenly think of that person deeply??? i found that that that person is missing you... is it true??? and i found that i still have deep feelings for that person... i am very confuse.... nearly 8 months.... do i still have deep feelings for him??? i want to forget him.... but he keep appearing my mind... what does it mean??? i don't want to think... but it keep appearing my mind... i say don't want... go away.... but it keep coming... what should i do??? what does it means??? i dreamt of him also... hmm..='( i don't know what to do right now.... =...