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i really don't like the way you treat me.. i never lie to you and you said that i am lying.. i already treated you as my close friend.. same as your boyfriend.. why you must think until so far??? i just want to play with your boyfriend because i treat him as my father.. i treated you as my mother... why must you think that i want to find daddy all the way from wangsa maju till asia jaya lrt station for nothing?? you think i want to chase him??? i won't! why??? he has girlfriend already.. and if i like daddy, i won't do that also... i will silently like him.. but i really like him as my close friend only... because i still not yet forget my ex... i still want my ex.but he don't want me.. what can i do... i still sad.. i know.. you told me to learn how to let go.. but you think is easy??? no man..it's not easy at all... i tried so many things already..still the same... i just let fate give me a good boy and always care for me.. i always do wrong thi...

to Lydia and Jon... you two know I am your daughter~~ let me tell mummy something, maybe I haven't know you so well, that's why I cannot stand the way you treated me.. seriously very different... and today, you never even say goodbye to me.. you left without telling me.. do you know you just hurt my feelings??? if i never sms you, i will never eat lunch... i thought you left, then i can eat lunch.. and also, maybe i think too much... think too much, something like~~ i feel bad for you if you treat people like this.. bit and shout at people... you should not treat people like this.. it's very hurtful..~~ now i just need to know you more... be comfortable with.. i am serious... i already treat you as my close friend now.. because we everytime hang out together... i also treat you like my real sister since i don't have any sister.. but since you have boyfriend, i better said to be treated as daughter.. i am sorry..maybe i think too much... what i ha...

mummy daddy....( referring to my friends) i want to tell whole world that, when i get to know my mummy, she always cares and treats me very good... although she got bit, shout and scold me.. lol but seriously... i was wrong.. haha.. i was sometimes too annoying or maybe irritate her.. lol i am sorry lar mummy...i just want to have fun... if you really don't like it, i will not do it anymore.. and also... i hope mummy, daddy and I will be close friends forever..haha.. =D i really hope you can guide me until i success... once i success with you in the future.. once i get and earn a lots of money.. i promise mummy!! i will bring mummy to vacation =D if mummy wants to bring daddy also can..more fun..lol and if i have a boyfriend that time, four of us go lor.. haha because~~ of course mummy daddy one room, i have my own room mar.. so i alone meh~~ lol...i hope i get boyfriend that time already lor... hehee... then, my future boyfriend can accompany me.. because i sca...

real world means you see how people react to you... some people just don't appreciate who she/he gets... for a boy, he does not appreciate a kind and decent girl and for a girl, she does not appreciate a kind and decent boy... ok, for now.. i am just saying.. some girls just like to hang out with some boys... she asked and told her boy to not get jealous.. ok fine.. he tried his best to not get jealous.. then what about he is hanging out with girls??? she does touch boys.. and she should let her boy touch girls.. doesn't mean anything... why must a girl jealous when she saw her boy touching and playing with girls?? while~~ she is playing with other boys??? this is so unfair... you want to do anything you like... then you should let your boy be same too.. same goes to boys... if you can touch girls, you should let your girl touch boys too... i just don't know why some boys and girls like a noob... loving someone who is not deserve to be.... i just don...

my throat is so so so pain... what should I do?? it's very suffering when i was eating just now.. ='( what to do??? no mood to study... no mood to do anything.. want to laugh also throat will pain.. hmm.. ='( why suddenly pain wan... T.T this semester i think got 3 or 4 times sick jor.. what happen to me??? ='( getting weaker... i am not weak..!! i am a strong strong girl...!! lol  play awhile then go do my work then sleep lor.. wish everyone good nights... don't sleep so late... take care of your health... don't be like me ok... i hope i can cure by tomorrow.... please.. i want to study... ='(

oh my goodness... i am having terrible sore throat... ='( how i want to talk tomorrow?? what should I do?? it's very painful and hurtful... suddenly this morning, i woke up, my throat is dying..lol.. what should I do??? =( now my nose very pain.. need to carry handkerchief everywhere... T_T so far, my mummy and daddy treated me very good o.. heehee... i hope they can treat me good for a long long time.. =3 very fun to play with my daddy.. because he won't angry and won't scold me. haha.. so i no need to scare...lol if for my mummy, i very scare of her o.. that's why i don't dare to play with her.. i prefer playing with my daddy.. ^_^ tomorrow he has exam, i wish him good luck ok... do your best.. your this daughter will always support you.. ^.^ and for my mummy, your presentation is on tuesday right?? i wish you good luck ok.. do properly lor.. your this daughter will always support you..^.^ now my mission is to cure my throat pain.. =/...

you will think i am stupid, that I couldn't forget you... well, I am sorry to not forget you... just that i hope that you have a good life, and has a girl who can take care of you... you just don't know how much you mean to me... i don't know why my memories are still fresh.. i already tried my best to forget you, but until now, it's seems cannot.. i have forgiven you... but just i cannot forget you.. my feelings for you are still strong.. do you know?? and do you remember what i told you last time??? i need to like a boy in order to forget you.. or i need years to forget you.. i still can see how you look like.. although i never see your profile, although i never disturb you anymore, although i change account, i tried my best to not go to your profile... i tried my best to put you away, because once i stop doing things, i will remember you... thinking what are you doing??? are you okie??? you are with who??? have you eaten breakfast??? lunch?...

this few weeks..i think 2 weeks i guess... my these friends, Lydia and he friends make me happy.. i keep on laughing also... by the way, i treat her as mummy and her boyfriend, Jon, i treat him as my daddy.. hahaha..funny right?? they treat me as daughter.. i really love them lor.. they are so good to me.. so far, today i hang out with them... but i feel like disturbing them lor.. =( i think they don't like.. so i keep thinking just now.. should i hang out with them ah??? it's like i am the middle person who like to disturb them.. but i am their daughter wor.. they want to do what, just do lor...lol... then my feelings like different, means like, i treated Lydia and Jon as my close friends.. haha... haizz.. if i don't want to disturb them, then i will be lonely... some of my friends also don't like me.. =( how to get along with them wor..right??? i was thinking about Jon, he is a good person and suitable with Lydia.. =) maybe i can find a boy like hi...

species??? my friends... ='( they are chinese educated.. and i am different..i am english educated.. what they talked, i understand... i really cannot stand the feelings... why can't they stop saying looking down at me, thinking i very stupid??? if you think you are smart, then be yourself.. no need to force OR ask other people to follow you what you want.. is their wills... you no need to ask them to do what... you all know or not??? i have been following what you all said until now.. you all talked to me is like really fed up of me.. what do you all want??? i have been patient.. patient since we start our assignments... what do you all want from me??? what i do, just let me do.. i will learn from mistakes... i really cannot stand the way you all treat me.. only two of you all soft to me.. the other both of you, please lar... respect me... i did wrong, you all shouldn't let go your angers... the way you all talk like want to fight and argue... just a...

i am awake... but not fully recover... ='( i don't know how long some more can get rid of this... haizz.. don't know what world is this why this world so unfair... i know i am not pretty... i am short... not attractive and others.. but if i really love a boy, i sure treat him too good de.. too worry, too care, too love until he get fed up.. == if boys are like that, then my next relationship, i just act as i don't really care about him... ok LOR!!! very hard to maintain relationship leh... sure got conflict wan... can Buddha release me from love??? i really cannot stand this feeling.. sometime i fainted... near to~~ it's like... too tired..but you just can't help it... it's so torturing... ='( guess yourself.... what you did~~ anyways, good nights....time to off....~~ hope tomorrow will be a better day... i will donate blood either tomorrow or friday.. ~~

today feel so tired... human is so cruel.. they only think their own feelings='( why never think of other people's feelings wan..~~ i really have hatred already... i don't want to hate people.. but my heart is like hating many people now.. those who make me angry, make me sad, make me hurt, i really hate those person already.. sigh.. don't know what to talk... i am going to sleep again..whole day sleep.. like want to die de.. stomach pain and head pain... ='( good nights....~~

tell you something... you treat me like and do me until so suffer.... i don't care... you better don't show your face in front of me in future.. if ever i saw you, i am going to smack you up properly.. let you feel the pain that you did to me.. you know how CRUEL are you??? you.... abandoned me twice~ TWICE  you know!! it's so cruel!! 1st time because of your ex...you hurt me quite bad lor..just ignore me... and this time the 2nd time is because you like someone else..break my heart until so pieces.. HOW CRUEL ARE YOU!! now only i realize.. i shouldn't treat you so good.. so humble, so worry, and so care... i want to tell you... i don't hate people... but i want you to REGRET of not having me... my future boyfriend/husband, i will treat him like a prince next time... if ever you find me again, i am going to smack you...! i don't care.. i don't want to give you chance anymore.. you made me suffer.. UNTIL NOW st...

today after principle of finance class, i bought food for family..haha.. then i go sleep in my brother's room.. i didn't know i am so tired until can soaring... lol then around 3pm nearly to 4pm, go to Putrajaya to see cruise.. we came back around 11.40pm because the distance very far... pictures will be up soon... =) hmm... i took a lots of pictures.. ^o^ very happy and feel fun today.. so long never spend time with family.... heehee.... eat a lots of things also.. very tired lor.... and just now watch piranha.. lol very not logic..and very funny.... anyways, good nights... i hope tomorrow will be a better day... just be patient with life.. go on... bad or good.. you have to accept it... =)

i got once told myself not to fall in love anymore until i finish study.. i was too playful and childish.. and i fall in love again.... one day, i fall in love for a boy... he did not know that i am really care and love him.. wanting him to be my life partner... but did not know he just left me like me.... i don't know this is being arranged or not.... i am still trying to accept the truth... trying to accept life... life have to go on no matter what happens... problems occur every day in my life... about assignments, i told my friends, i never even copy from my senior's assignment.... of course i know it is not related to the topic we did... just because i am not smart enough, you all think that i copy from senior??? why would you all think like this??? you all should know.. i am the last person should do.. so you all have to be fast and send to me your documents... not only i wrong... you all are the factors too... you all should ...

sorry so many days never update... =) here's some things i wanna say today... it keeps repeating to my heart.. wishing me to tell out.. so i am here to tell out... you made me fall, but i tried my best to stand up again. you made me devastated, but i manage to recover everything. you made me sad, but i manage to make myself to be a happy person. you made my life miserable, but i made it wonderful back. you made me into a weak person, but i manage to get myself into a stronger person back. well... life is like that means like that... unpredictable... unbelievable... anything can happen in our life.. so cherish anything you like before it's gone... today met one Indonesian family and I guide to KLCC.. LOL.. it's like i am the tour guide.. hahaha... but anyways, i hope they know how to go back Bukit Bintang where is their hotel there.. i think this family is kinda rich lor... from Indonesia leh... Malaysia money is higher currency than Indonesia....