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Mummy.. I LOVE YOU.. muackss * kisses and hug*  you will always in my heart forever.. no matter where you go, i will follow you behind.. you are one of my most important people in my life... no you, i cannot live properly... no you, i will cry everyday.... no you, i do not know how to continue my life... no you, myself will be 'no me' too.... you are all and everything for me... you born me to this world... and you feed and take care of me.. sorry for what i have done to you... sorry for what i have hurt you... sorry that i shouted at you when i am angry... sorry that sometimes i ignore you... as far as i can see... i am very a very jealousy person... so i hope mummy will always support me and give me courage in my studies.. and after i graduate... i will make mummy proud... and i also hope that mummy will give me support in any of my relationship... as long as i really love and care for this person.. and if that person really love and care for me.. and i...

Why my mood is going down day by day...~~ i want to study... career first.. most of the people said career is the most important... why my brain keep thinking and thinking 'that thing'??? it is hurtful and painful.... i miss that person so much these few days....~~ sometimes never miss, sometimes miss until like crazy... will he come back??? as a friend or lover??? i do not know! time only can say.... but this time, really i do not why.... really cannot take it this situation... now my whole family go out... what should i do??? feeling like crying.. but no one is hearing and listening to me... no one understand my feelings.. is it i think too much??? or it is really a true fact??? it is 2 answers only... real or false.... i do not know.... really very hard to concentrate on my studies for now.. i hope i can manage to proceed to next semester..... really mood is going down day by day.. what happen to me.... I hope God is watching me.. I hope God is ...

like what you said, we can be friends for now.... i will not do anything anymore.. but i really do not want this relationship to be sour forever... for me, friendship and relationship are important... what we did last time, we should forgive and forget... we should start new life..... to tell you the truth... i do not have the courage to send you message because you might not reply me... really.... i do not want any sour things in my life... i mean, sour forever... i do not like it.. you also do not like it right??? i like to maintain friendship or relationship ... i do not like to be enemy or strangers.. enemy as in you hate me i hate you...i curse you and you curse me.. NO! i do not like this status..very very very sour.... like lemon.. == and...... strangers as in you do not know me and i do not know you.... maybe can say that we have not talk before and meet before... is it like no connection...== very very sour la... i really do not want this kind of status.. i...

so tired this morning.. mummy keep asking me go out la.. i say no mood la.. ='( but really i no mood lor... i also don't know why... but in the end, i went to 1 utama with mummy.... == mummy go shopping for so many hours.. end up never dinner.. and just eat what we bought, ( the buns and the japanese pizza) we share share lor.. now feel so hungry... but i cannot eat because scare fat...>< i already lost a lot of weight.. i have to loss somemore...! then can be thin... Ah heeheeheeeeee...... be thin then can wear many dresses and look nice mar... =P and can wear shorts look more nice and attractive mar... hahahahaah.... crazy de... but really wan geh.. i must be thin.. today, mummy bought for me dresses and blouse. i keep on trying and trying.. i do not know why all the sudden i feel like shopping more.. lol... mummy scolded me again.. ='( i told her... 'mummy you stand here so long, don't want to go to other place and see???' straigh...