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8 august 2015

Today was my violin performance. My parents brought me to college and I managed to practice before the competition starts. First of all, we eat pizza and drink green tea(oishi) i dont know how to spell.. hahaa.. sorry.. and then drink some tropicana twister.. thanks to those who buy and i'm appreciate that i have fun today.. so happy.. but i'm so damn nervous when i start to play.. hahahaha... even though i'm not the winner, but i know i wont give up on my music life. because i love music and always love it. my parents supported me all the way and brought me to college.. i'm so grateful that they brought me there and accompany me whole day.. although i feel abit guilty about my brother, but i also wish him to go but he doesnt want =( haizz.. cannot force him huh.. i also want to thank to my lecturer Miss Regina for supporting me all the way.. she told me dont give up and always practice.. yeah.. i will.. and always will.. hehehe... so now i had done my photography, v...
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Friends, relationship, and family..

Which one should I say out first?? My feelings is so weak right now.. I don't know what to do.. :( I couldn't even concentrate in my class. I told some of my friends in college. None of them don't give a damn on me.. what the heck man.. :( So sad.. :( Ok.. well... i just wanna release my feelings.. :( now I realize that my friends are just using me... I know my personality is bad.. I don't know how to be better.. but I just wish that people can accept who am I... why must see outer not inner??? :( what I mean is people always see appearance not attitude/behaviour... so sad.. :( My feelings told me that my friends are just using me all along.. but I just couldn't accept it... arrrhhhh... I feel so stupid... Why can't I accept it??!!! If I keep thinking 'nonono' , end up I will be the one hurt... whenever they need me, they use me.. whenever they don't need me, they just treat me like garbage... sad.. really sad... I'm a human w...
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New semester

Yar... new semester, but for me it's old..=.='' I just need to work hard... tomorrow is my new/old semester... also it's my first class of the semester... but I don't really go to school because I am yet to be cure... hmm... I just hope I can go through this diploma... I just wonder why.. why it's so hard to get diploma... i really envy my friends, relatives and brother... They all can get certificate but yet to be me.. =( i really want... I worked very hard.... just... haizz... I also don't know what to say... well.. just work hard... timetable haven't come out, so I got to go to school.. even submit my form.. you know my letter.. hospital.. lol... and also take some pictures.. xD... after settle everything.. I come back home.. pisshhh... lol... if my friends are not there, I don't give a damn larh.. why should I wait for them.... hehe..=P okiee.. it's nearly time to sleep... I need to pack my things and wake up at 6am.. gerrr... (ma...
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before I sleep... >__<''

hmm... I am back... hehe >__<'' hmm... I wanted to sleep now but feel dizzy... lol.. I wanted to listen some music while sleeping. that's very nice feeling you know.... xD hmmmm... I also wanted to know... why I like to write lyrics and express my own feelings through my own lyrics??? and also, when I see people act in tv, I can feel those emotion... and also... and also.. why when I check updates about celebrities hobbies.... their hobbies are exactly mine??? It's not I wanted to be like them.. that's just my favourite hobbies... I really love to do them all... for example, listening music, writing lyrics, composing own music, and maybe eat.. lol.. and play computer... xD...hmm... I just wondering... how can I success??? I don't know I'm going to the right path.. =( I just hope there is a road for me to go... I don't want the road to be block.. please.. so now.. i'm going to sleep. well.. will continue tomorrow... night night... =)
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yes.. my current life...

I am seriously sad about my current life.. which is this year... I thought it would be better because last year was a terrible year... It was my break up.. and I couldn't take it... then this year... all the sudden, accidents happened to me.. it's damn freaking frustrating... =( tell me... what did I do wrong all these years ??? is it I didn't listen to my parents and got these consequences ??? I don't think... I did listen to them.. just that I need life outside.... =( really.... many things happened to me... and I'm really freaking sad... no one knows my feelings.. You see me happy... but inside is sad... You can't see it... and you knew it.. =( seriously i want my life change next year... I really hope I can see the happy and beautiful world with my family.... if God wants to take me with HIM... I did like to say I love you to my parents first... really.. I thought I was died during operation... really thank God for letting me live longer.. ...
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Update.. TEEHEE =P

hmm... what's about life huh??? o.O.. lol... heh.. it's just the same lorh...xD i have happy life.. but the thing is this year maybe not a good year for me.. =( it's  because many things happened to me... if i'm not mistaken... break up friendship... T.T i also don't know what's her and his problem..>___<'' i just know that i couldn't get along with her.. maybe because she jealous that her bf and i might like each other... but the thing is i don't like him.i mean no feelings.. just as a brother.. fine.. stop it.. lol.. so after that, when i was outing with my family except my eldest brother... you know what... somehow i pushed the trolley and dropped on the spot at the escalator... =.='' seriously damn hurt... then bus accident.. =.='' my head hurts... i nearly fainted when came down from the bus.. my head again.. =( that's why i nearly fainted.. LOL... thank God that i'm strong.. TEEHEE =P Imma strong ...
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Hi, i'm back..=)

life sucks.. lol... =P but seriously sucks.. I said that I did planned everything before my exams what I wanted to do.. but end up, all the plans not worked.. =.='' just because of one thing... I had an operation in my stomach, because my stomach was painful.. it happened last Friday, 16 August 2013.. so I just waited.. maybe it was gastric... but I was wrong... Saturday and Sunday I vomited and the pain went down to my right side... =__='' seriously I don't know what's the problem... then after that, I.. myself walk like an old lady.. lol... then my parents brought me to hospital... hehe... end up doctor said that I suffered from appendice.... so I had to do an operation... it's so damn freaking pain... walao.. I tell you that day... OH MY GOODNESS man... I keep praying and praying, faster over... yes it's over now.. but it's damn freaking itchy and pain... right now.. right now I'm typing here... =.='' why I did operatio...
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