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although i still feel so sad and depress, missing you so much, but i decided to study properly... and be a successful woman.. i know you won't call me or msg me anymore.. I did so many bad things to you, and I really regretted... so sorry, and I will change... just that, i hope one day, you can come back and meet me, or i go back to meet you.. it is depending on our fate.. this is our 2nd fate.. i hope we can be in our 3rd fate. i don't want to mention about our 1st fate...and 2nd fate because... i know you know...or maybe you forget..lolzz then, i hope you forget everything and study properly too... but i really hope that after your diploma which is next year, come find me back... because i know myself, i will still like you.. maybe fade a lot, but i still like you...i'm serious.. >< although i put single in my profile.. actually i'm following you.. you single i single lor,....xD but no matter what, you are still in my heart.. and i hope t...

good morning everyone.. =) I feel so lonely without you... when only you call me or text me? do you know? when you watch any drama right, i watched one taiwanese drama, and i realized that this boy did the same thing as me.. he treated the girl badly because he really love her.. then after doing these all, he realize that he was wrong, and he did changed his attitude.. she is the one who guide him and teach him.. you should know that I need to change too... Although i don't know what you are thinking now, but again, i'm truly sorry.. really really sorry on what I did... so many dramas are like this too.. either boys or girls will hurt the person he/she really loves, I don't know why I am like this.. maybe because i miss you so much.. and worry about you.. my heart is very ache now... i still got exam.. and my birthday coming... i hope you can wish me birthday... if you are busy, then nvm... i can try to accept it... but on november, on your birthday...

just a message to you  =') although i never do anything like posting anything in facebook today, i still miss you so much and worry about you... and also thinking what you are doing now... it is 12.10am... tomorrow i have exams, sorry that I have to study for exam tomorrow, that is why I cannot manage to sleep at 10.30pm.. sorry ya... T_T hmm... after my exams, i will sleep at 10.30pm... and also i won't disturb you.. i know you are busy..your semester starts and you need to help your family..( i cannot say out) heehee.. so, just to tell you, i miss you so much and feeling to hear your voice again.. i really do love you. And what I did last time, please forget and forgive me okey? I will changed. Maybe now I changed a little. and yea, i still wear our rings. do you still wear?? Although I don't know what you are thinking now, but I am really really sorry on what I did.. I know I think of myself and always so selfish to you. I want to correct my mistakes. Just th...

what is my aims now??? 1. be happy....try to forget all my past...( if my bf really don't want me anymore) 2. be happy.... and still becareful ( if my bf accepts me back) 3 . change my stupid attitude....be nice to people... if i feel not satisfy also just don't care...be strong. >< 4. study properly... i need to get my diploma now.... 5. after get my diploma, i will go somewhere and chase him back...( hopefully he don't have gf lar T_T if he really don't want me anymore) 6. after get diploma, i go find him in somewhere...( if he accepts me back) 7. after diploma sure work lor... then try to get him back ( if now he really don't want me) or i go find him again.... THEN...now....i just don't bother and don't want to disturb him anymore... he is busy... i know... i understand.. morning he got class, if no class also he go to his teacher's house... okey..then afternoon is the same... or maybe he tired, he wants to rest.. then evening he...

dear, i feel so lonely without you... can you forgive me ma??? i have realize... please give me another chance... i don't know what you think and feel now, but.... i really sorry... if you really don't care and hate me... then i sure hate myself forever.. how can i do such a thing to my bf...='( just to tell you... i deserve it... but i really really sorry to you... i even send letter and use up my money... i know... i'm stupid... i will never understand on what i do until you do this to me... now i realize... what you did to me now... you leave our group, and remove our pictures... i only realize that how important are you to me... i send you cj7, i hope you like it... i don't know when i can send you, but...now.... i send you because i am sending pos laju... i know you care me so much but i never appreciate.. like that i said.. i will change... i'm serious... and my birthday is coming... i want you be with me...okey ma??? how i wa...

the feeling is very different, it is like cutting deeply, when only can be heal back??? it dreams about the sweet moments, when only the sweet moments will appear back??? the mind keep thinking about the same thing, it cannot concentrate on other things, it had falling in love with the special one, it still cannot find where the special one, when only the special one will be right in front and beside it??? the feeling and mind is very confused, it just cannot take it at this moment, and really in pain, feel depress whenever think of the special one, try to think also the special one will appear on it's mind... cannot like that... cannot like that.... cannot like that..... it knows that it must be patience... =) must be patience...... wait the time comes..... but still got how long??? anyways, it wishes you good nights, and it says, if your special one is beside you, you have to appreciate, don't only regret when your special one are not here anymore or...

exam is just next week and my resit coursework for OHR test is tomorrow... so stress and nervous... i hope i can pass all my subjects this time... last semester i failed 2 subjects... i hope this semester can get at least B- or more.... hopefully i can get a better results... if cannot get B- also must pass.. i don't want to resit anymore.. =( i don't want to waste daddy mummy's money de..=( but i work hard, why i can still fail??? my  brother said that i study in a wrong way.. hopefully this semester i can do well and my cgpa can be higher... it is very low now..T_T and now is very hot.. hot like oven..OMG... and also...i'm addicted to DRAW SOMETHING games de oo... hopefully after exam i can play that every moment..xD and hope that my sayang bao bei can talk with me.. eventhough you are busy, i still can tahan... i know why you do this.. finally i understand... but sometimes, i really cannot stop thinking of you.. i really cannot stop missing you...

after my mid term test, i thought i can study already... but...what??? some people just leak out the questions.. somehow lar..then the management asked us to resit for the midterm test... do you know or not... i'm already forbid about my resit??? i have failed so many subjects in these 2 semester you know.. and you want me or even worst.. everyONE of us...to resit for the midterm test.. and yet, i heard that, if we cannot get through.. straight repeat...WTH... you don't care other people feelings leh... u think u r what??? u want get high marks is it??? u get the marks not enough is it??? what lar... somemore, it is on thursday... hmm..THURSDAY it's okey.. but it is at night u know.. u know how worry am I??? and u know how worry that if I FAIL??!! DAMN U...never think of people... i just feel very depress.. and no one can make me happy...=( i cried for so many days... even now i still crying... ='( just that..NO ONE CAN UNDERSTAND MY FEELIN...

my whole body is sooooo itchy!!! ARrhhhhhhh.... why can be like this????!!!!! heyyyaaaa..... ='( please don't itchy lar... somemore so pain.... this four days i keep suffering from this pain.... and itchiness....='( i cannot sleep well.... and also a little dizzy... my sleeping time let you take already lor...T_T when only my skin can cure from the itchiness and the pain.... it is been 4 days already...='( don't want....don't want...hmmm.... ='( i won't eat anything i really cannot eat or drink anything de... this time really cannot stand of this pain and itchiness... so disappointed.... T_T now i stilll feel pain.... itchy at every part of my body especially at my leg there... i feel like using my friend's cream is like make me more itchy..lol... i don't know lar.. just feel like that.. because when i wash  off the cream at my skin, i feel more pain and itchy.....O.O xD... haizzz.. ='( faster cure ya itchy and pain....

today's english class was really a shock for me... maybe for my classmates too... how can i do like this??? yes... i am too nervous because  everyone was looking at me... i proof to everyone now... even though you said that i can speak well, and my english is good.. but you just cannot say like this, because i need confidence, maybe it is because my boy is not beside me right now, he always give me support before presentation, i could not bare the shyness, i can tell and proof to you, i am a shy person, once i see a lot of people looking at me, i will hide behind, maybe i am not the kind of person who is suitable for becoming MC, or any media jobs. so now, that is what I think, i do not know my further future yet, today i just realise that, actually i am shy... maybe not shy but nervous.. i do not know.. or maybe i scare i get low marks... well,let us see my future.. i hope i can success.. and i love you my boy ( cannot tell who is him) i really you by my s...