speechless
I started to feel that I couldn't trust anyone anymore.. it's not like me anymore... I feel like I'm like different person.. not Jayin... it's like different.. you know what I meant??? I uhm... I just don't know... don't know how to say... but I feel like I always make wrong decision.. When I do this, no one care for me... They said I'm wrong... When I helped people, some of them never appreciate... it's like they are just using me... I being kind to them... but it seems like I cannot do it anymore... only those who always show one face, I will show my kindness... but to those who I can feel... I can see through my eyes... they have two faces... I don't so trust them anymore... Those who lied at me.. I don't even trust them anymore.. It's true that I'm naïve... I always think that when people help me, I will treat them very good and think they are the best... but I don't know in future still the same or not.. I just do...