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life sucks.. lol... =P but seriously sucks.. I said that I did planned everything before my exams what I wanted to do.. but end up, all the plans not worked.. =.='' just because of one thing... I had an operation in my stomach, because my stomach was painful.. it happened last Friday, 16 August 2013.. so I just waited.. maybe it was gastric... but I was wrong... Saturday and Sunday I vomited and the pain went down to my right side... =__='' seriously I don't know what's the problem... then after that, I.. myself walk like an old lady.. lol... then my parents brought me to hospital... hehe... end up doctor said that I suffered from appendice.... so I had to do an operation... it's so damn freaking pain... walao.. I tell you that day... OH MY GOODNESS man... I keep praying and praying, faster over... yes it's over now.. but it's damn freaking itchy and pain... right now.. right now I'm typing here... =.='' why I did operatio...

wish me luck wish me luck.... >___<''' i'm very scare... and stress.. lol... still can blog.. xD.... just blog before my exam... i'm going off these maybe 2 weeks.... hehe... hmm... i had planned what i want to do during semester break.. hopefully i can do it... must not be lazy... i just wish God make us,human be hardworking, not lazy.. i mean the word 'lazy'.. is not exist in dictionary...LOL... =P i know, there is a positive and negative manner... hehe... okiee.. time to do revision.. i will be be a nerd for these 2 weeks... =) then after that become a pro gamer/director/producer.... LOL.. just kidding... i wish i can be a director in the future.. but there  is no percentage.. means there is no possibility to do so.. sad...=( well.. just wait and see... it's 2.37am.. i'm still awake... my brother said that i had forgot him because i didn't cry anymore.. but just to tell out here, that actually i, myself don't know t...

what am I thinking now?? I was thinking about.... why I keep saying that... my family is the most important for me now??? because... first thing.. should I say about the past??? I think I should... it's a true story... this incident was in 2010... this girl met this boy during christmas time... they are far apart... but they knew they are in love... but didn't know that they are not meant to be together... they spent time together every night after the boy went back to his home... sometimes they are busy doing their own things. never talk for few days.. but they knew, their love will never fade.. that's what they thought.. but they didn't know there is something wrong between them.. the boy's parents don't allow him to get along with the girl.. maybe they thought that the girl was a bad girl for him.. so, the girl thought about leaving him for good.. but he did not want.. but after quite sometime, he boy couldn't stand anymore and tried about 3 time...

it's a happiieee dayyiieee... yarhh. happiieee dayyiiieee.... everydayy is a happyyy day... lol... =P today I suddenly missed my family especially my parents... i was in college... maybe i was lonely.. alone.. =( but it's okieee... i'm in my brother's room now..xDD... now. what i think is really hope exams finish.. because i want to make my drama.. Promise.. hehe... then i wanna make a movie.. eeeekkkk.... i want.. lol... =P faster finish... i hope i can really go through everything.. get A B C...NOT C- please. =.='' get A B..i want A B.. so focus.. and focus. ^___^'' and you know what???? i have 50 subscribers in youtube.. woohoo.. just 4 months... but i feel it's kinda long... =( it's okiee. keep going.. i want more subscribers... more and more... then i can become famous... ^___^'' hehe... i wanted to be somebody who can be a director and producer.. maybe direct cartoon??? lol.. produce music?? hehe.. combinations??? l...

First of all.. those who don't wish to read my blog, please leave.. if you think that I'm an emo person.. please leave.. I don't need you to read... it's my life, my blog.. I want to do what I like and express, it's my own problem... Now I can start... hehe... I couldn't tell what is my real feelings now... Sometimes I can still remember the person who I really loved before... But I keep wondering why I must deserve this ??? Is there an opportunity to get a better ones ??? the truth is .... the truth is.. I don't know how to express out.. but when I listen to the music lyrics, I felt hurt... sometimes I think back of the past... I don't know how to describe this feeling.. this is just so so wrong.. I really don't know how to overcome.... I don't wish to know the truth... but I really confuse.... What am I doing now??? Studying??? I wish to.... I really wish to...I really don't know what I was doing... Sometimes, I feel th...

what i do... i just cannot get it done.. why larh... =( why i so failure wan.. T.T i took 6 subjects.. what i got now??? why teacher don't let me pass everything.. =( it's just so sad.. I can't argue.. I can't do anything... feel so sad... I should study today.. but end up no mood.. listening to music made me feel better. but still very sad.. maybe I will do other things that I like... im blogging now... yarh... just to release my feelings.. i just feel very guilty.. =( why i cant do this.. it's for myself and my parents.... if i can't earn a lot of money, who will be taking care of my parents??  i promise my parents i will take care of them.. because they take care of me.,i must return a favour... this is just so sad... =( sad until cannot feel any feeling.. just........ haizzz.... what am I doing now??? =( i'm so scare.... i don't want to graduate alone.. =( why this world so unfair??? what did i do wrong??? why must be me??? all...