my mind.. why i think like this.. ='')
what am I thinking now??
I was thinking about.... why I keep saying that...
my family is the most important for me now???
because... first thing.. should I say about the past???
I think I should...
it's a true story...
this incident was in 2010...
this girl met this boy during christmas time... they are far apart... but they knew they are in love... but didn't know that they are not meant to be together... they spent time together every night after the boy went back to his home...
sometimes they are busy doing their own things. never talk for few days.. but they knew, their love will never fade.. that's what they thought.. but they didn't know there is something wrong between them..
the boy's parents don't allow him to get along with the girl.. maybe they thought that the girl was a bad girl for him.. so, the girl thought about leaving him for good.. but he did not want.. but after quite sometime, he boy couldn't stand anymore and tried about 3 times, 3 methods.. whatever he can do to brake up with her.. but the girl couldn't stand her feelings.. because she really cares and loves him.. just that she don't know how to show it.. it was her first love.. so she cried so hard... the boy felt depressed and told the girl, he won't leave the girl and will be with her forever.. they made a promise.. but during the years.. they get along each other.. and met one time.. he boy came to find the girl.. the girl was upset because her parents don't want to go to the boy's place...the boy told the girl.. ' I will wait for you no matter what'....so times goes...
by the year 2011...
the girl felt that the boy changed after chinese new year...but the boy still cares and showed love to her.. so she still can trust him.. they were still happy and get along for about 2 months.. but one day.. the girl was missing him because it's like 3 days didn't talk to him.. she don't know whether the boy knows about it or not..but she insist to call him.. he did not picked up the phone.. he cancelled it.. so she was really upset and abit of anger...thinking that he didn't did that before to her... she tried again.. then he said he was busy... just two words.. it was rude.. quite rude.. then she got very upset and keep calling him.. why did she keep calling him?? because she was worry about him.. that night, he told her not to worry about him and do her own things.. she did listened to him because she knew that he likes her listening to him.. so she did what she can... she tried her best to do, just for him.. but didn't know he had really changed..
the day she insisted to call him many times.. then end up he switched his phone off.. so she cried for awhile.. and just leave him for awhile..and that night, she called him again.. saying sorry.. and won't do it again.. she didn't know that was his first day of class.. she thought that he would tell her about his first class..usually he would tell her about it.. but why not on that time he tell??? did he kept any secret behind her???
so she kept thinking.. why he treated her like that... she cried whole night..because it's like she lost trust on him.. then next day she couldn't concentrate in her exams...and day by day. she sms him. no reply.. no call.. until one day.. she saw him online.. he was so cold to her.. and she even did called him. trying to fix their friendship.. it's okie to be friends.. but she couldn't stand the feelings.. all she knows is love and care... why don't the boy understand??? she don't care about money.. but the boy kept telling her, money is important in life.. so she got even upset... into depression... he told her not to disturb him again if not he will angry... so the girl stopped... stopped connecting him... but after few days, the boy removed her from a social network.. she got really upset.. her mother told her not to contact him anymore.. she listened to her mother.. and so day by day.. she left alone and lonely in college... walk alone.. eat alone.. without people bothering her.. all she did was crying silently..but no one knows how pain it hurts...the only boy she loved.. just left her for good... all the promise just disbursed to the air... then after that.. she was better abit.. she thought maybe he need to chill because she made him angry the past few days.. but end up.. he told her that he loved another girl and said that they are not meant to be together.. the girl heart broke into pieces.. and her mother told her not to talk to him again..what the girl did was to just scare him.. just to see whether he will reply.. but he did not..
for about few months. the girl was in depression.. she kept thinking... what is love??? what is trust??? what is promise??? she felt so hurt.. deeply hurt.. no one feels it...
even her mother who born her out... all her mother did was to scold her.. not to being emotional and concentrate in studies.. the girl ran off and stayed in college to chill herself.. writing lyrics and composing her own music... it feels better to be that...
when she came home.. she felt the pain shock into her.. but her father and brother knew the feelings.. her brother was the one who always stand up for her... he told her if she wants to forget about the boy, she must release out,so she did released out until her tears were dry..
she couldn't concentrate her studies. it was the 2nd year..so all her performance dropped.. and failed all the 2nd year.. only like 2 or 3 pass.. just barely pass.. it was really terrible nightmare..because all she did in class was to think about what is love, trust and promise???
so day by day.. she thought that she couldn't trust people even her family and friends..
but she still give chance, because she knew that there still 2nd and 3rd chance.. =')
soooo....
in the year 2012...
she met these 2 girls and a boy...one of the girl and the boy are couples... they are good people.. they treated her good...
everyday spend time together..
but the girl started to felt hatred to her parents, because not letting her to go to the boy's place.. because last time, the boy said that his parents would like to meet her, to see whether she is a good or bad girl...
so the girl end up become a bad girl.. everyday go out and hang out with those 3 friends... she did not realize that actually the girl was just using her all along such as whenever she is alone, she would call the the girl out..but she treated the girl good...
so.. day by day.... they spend time together.. until one day... the girl feel that those 3 friends can be like her siblings.. so she treated everyone good.. including the boy... she was just trying to get close to him because she treated him as brother and hoping that he could treat her as his sister.. but his girlfriend felt jealous and keep saying that the girl like him.. so the girl felt that... her friend did not trust her... and her friend denied it.. saying that ' i didn't say that, i didn't feel that'...that was in front of her boyfriend... the girl was quite pissed already.. the girl didn't do anything wrong in my life.. why all these kind of negative things come into my life???
the girl was so upset about this.. the girl have no road.. the girl thought of committing suicide.. but she knew that was not the right choice.. she chose my family.. because she knew they needed me.. so she quit it.. she didn't do anything stupid..
She and her friends patched back together.. but still the same problem occurred... until one day... the girl thought that trusting people is all liesssss....so she started to hate everyone.. so she don't want to be upset again.. she had fed up of everything.. she don't want to hurt her heart anymore. it's not good for future..
her exams results getting worst and worst because of the boy she loved and her friends..
so, one day.. her good friend who is the girl(the one don't have boyfriend).. she told the girl that she wanted to meet her.. the girl said for what??? her friend said just meet only.. long time didn't meet.. the girl felt suspicious.. but she gave chance to her friend because she didn't lied to her before.. so the next day.. after the girl's exam.. the girl felt that something told her not to go.. but she insisted want to go..so end up they met up... for about 15 minutes later.. a boy came. she knew something was up... so the girl was regretted trusting her only friend.. the another girl who has boyfriend came too.. so the girl was really shocked.. she saw her friend acted like nothing.. didn't even care for the girl's feelings... none of them care of the girl's feeling.. so the girl felt so hurt and anger inside her heart.. she was dismissed to go to the washroom.. she called her brother who always stand up for her.. he told her that 'don't so trust friends.. faster come back'...
so she was in tears.. but she can control it.. because she was a good actress.. LOL.. =P
okiee.. so... back to the point... her eyes was red... her friend suddenly felt guilty... end up.. the girl who has boyfriend.. keep denying and lying... no one knows.. only God knew it...even the girl said those things to argue back.. but her friend kept saying no no no... so what for to meet... the girl don't want to meet, it's because that her friend was a liar.. if someone loves to lie.. no point argue, no point make up a meeting...
so when the girl went home.. she sms her friend.. saying that.. ' i didn't know you were lying to me too. how can I trust you in future.. 3 times you lied to me.. i gave you chance.. what about now???'
so the next day... she removed me from a social network.. the girl was upset... but after few days.. her friend sms her... the girl was in her class.. so she couldn't reply.. as usual..her friend thought she did not want to friend her anymore.. so she sms the girl again.. the girl kept thinking... maybe she should not cause trouble.. so just friend back..
so everything goes normal.. until one day... the girl who has boyfriend always love to lie.. she always lies to the girl.. so the the girl couldn't stand anymore.. telling her boyfriend.. why his girlfriend always lie to me.. it's damn not worth to lie.. =___='''
then they keep arguing because of the girl..
it's not the girl's problem.. who ask the that girl to lie??? so the next day... when both of them in citc.. that girl came out and scolded the the girl.. the girl felt damn pissed and started to tell everything... so that girl bang the door.. even the girl's friend scared and ran away... but the girl did not afraid.. she knew she was shocked by she stand it.. LOL.. *pro* =P
then the girl stopped the conversation because the lecturer called her...
that night.. the girl kept thinking... is there a trust in life??? maybe love with family got... what about trust and promise??? hmm...
so... the next day... that girl who has boyfriend removed the girl form a social network.. even the boy... and the boy even sms the girl.. wow... that's so not like the girl.. that's so like the boy's girlfriend...
and all that girl thinks about is the girl loves her boyfriend.. =.='' pfftt!!... she didn't love him at all... just a brother.. =.='' LOL...
so.... day by day...her friend still together with that girl.. so the girl still felt hurt and depress.. feeling that her friend might treating her as another person.. not an important person... so.. she maybe finally understands everything... friends and outsiders might not make her happy..
so day by day.. she tried her best to stay at home quietly and be with her family.. but things changed... the girl feeling better and have a happy life with her family.. she found out that the only trust and only love is her family.. only her family will always love her and won't blame her anything.. even if blame her.. it's her own mistakes... but.. she still thinking ... what about promise???
she might waiting for her prince to come.. but let's see.. maybe in future??? maybe that's the promise she could finds???
who knows.. =)
i might doing this in maplestory movie too...=)
it's like a life cycle.. LOL.. =P
stay tuned.. it's really a true story.. ^.^''
I was thinking about.... why I keep saying that...
my family is the most important for me now???
because... first thing.. should I say about the past???
I think I should...
it's a true story...
this incident was in 2010...
this girl met this boy during christmas time... they are far apart... but they knew they are in love... but didn't know that they are not meant to be together... they spent time together every night after the boy went back to his home...
sometimes they are busy doing their own things. never talk for few days.. but they knew, their love will never fade.. that's what they thought.. but they didn't know there is something wrong between them..
the boy's parents don't allow him to get along with the girl.. maybe they thought that the girl was a bad girl for him.. so, the girl thought about leaving him for good.. but he did not want.. but after quite sometime, he boy couldn't stand anymore and tried about 3 times, 3 methods.. whatever he can do to brake up with her.. but the girl couldn't stand her feelings.. because she really cares and loves him.. just that she don't know how to show it.. it was her first love.. so she cried so hard... the boy felt depressed and told the girl, he won't leave the girl and will be with her forever.. they made a promise.. but during the years.. they get along each other.. and met one time.. he boy came to find the girl.. the girl was upset because her parents don't want to go to the boy's place...the boy told the girl.. ' I will wait for you no matter what'....so times goes...
by the year 2011...
the girl felt that the boy changed after chinese new year...but the boy still cares and showed love to her.. so she still can trust him.. they were still happy and get along for about 2 months.. but one day.. the girl was missing him because it's like 3 days didn't talk to him.. she don't know whether the boy knows about it or not..but she insist to call him.. he did not picked up the phone.. he cancelled it.. so she was really upset and abit of anger...thinking that he didn't did that before to her... she tried again.. then he said he was busy... just two words.. it was rude.. quite rude.. then she got very upset and keep calling him.. why did she keep calling him?? because she was worry about him.. that night, he told her not to worry about him and do her own things.. she did listened to him because she knew that he likes her listening to him.. so she did what she can... she tried her best to do, just for him.. but didn't know he had really changed..
the day she insisted to call him many times.. then end up he switched his phone off.. so she cried for awhile.. and just leave him for awhile..and that night, she called him again.. saying sorry.. and won't do it again.. she didn't know that was his first day of class.. she thought that he would tell her about his first class..usually he would tell her about it.. but why not on that time he tell??? did he kept any secret behind her???
so she kept thinking.. why he treated her like that... she cried whole night..because it's like she lost trust on him.. then next day she couldn't concentrate in her exams...and day by day. she sms him. no reply.. no call.. until one day.. she saw him online.. he was so cold to her.. and she even did called him. trying to fix their friendship.. it's okie to be friends.. but she couldn't stand the feelings.. all she knows is love and care... why don't the boy understand??? she don't care about money.. but the boy kept telling her, money is important in life.. so she got even upset... into depression... he told her not to disturb him again if not he will angry... so the girl stopped... stopped connecting him... but after few days, the boy removed her from a social network.. she got really upset.. her mother told her not to contact him anymore.. she listened to her mother.. and so day by day.. she left alone and lonely in college... walk alone.. eat alone.. without people bothering her.. all she did was crying silently..but no one knows how pain it hurts...the only boy she loved.. just left her for good... all the promise just disbursed to the air... then after that.. she was better abit.. she thought maybe he need to chill because she made him angry the past few days.. but end up.. he told her that he loved another girl and said that they are not meant to be together.. the girl heart broke into pieces.. and her mother told her not to talk to him again..what the girl did was to just scare him.. just to see whether he will reply.. but he did not..
for about few months. the girl was in depression.. she kept thinking... what is love??? what is trust??? what is promise??? she felt so hurt.. deeply hurt.. no one feels it...
even her mother who born her out... all her mother did was to scold her.. not to being emotional and concentrate in studies.. the girl ran off and stayed in college to chill herself.. writing lyrics and composing her own music... it feels better to be that...
when she came home.. she felt the pain shock into her.. but her father and brother knew the feelings.. her brother was the one who always stand up for her... he told her if she wants to forget about the boy, she must release out,so she did released out until her tears were dry..
she couldn't concentrate her studies. it was the 2nd year..so all her performance dropped.. and failed all the 2nd year.. only like 2 or 3 pass.. just barely pass.. it was really terrible nightmare..because all she did in class was to think about what is love, trust and promise???
so day by day.. she thought that she couldn't trust people even her family and friends..
but she still give chance, because she knew that there still 2nd and 3rd chance.. =')
soooo....
in the year 2012...
she met these 2 girls and a boy...one of the girl and the boy are couples... they are good people.. they treated her good...
everyday spend time together..
but the girl started to felt hatred to her parents, because not letting her to go to the boy's place.. because last time, the boy said that his parents would like to meet her, to see whether she is a good or bad girl...
so the girl end up become a bad girl.. everyday go out and hang out with those 3 friends... she did not realize that actually the girl was just using her all along such as whenever she is alone, she would call the the girl out..but she treated the girl good...
so.. day by day.... they spend time together.. until one day... the girl feel that those 3 friends can be like her siblings.. so she treated everyone good.. including the boy... she was just trying to get close to him because she treated him as brother and hoping that he could treat her as his sister.. but his girlfriend felt jealous and keep saying that the girl like him.. so the girl felt that... her friend did not trust her... and her friend denied it.. saying that ' i didn't say that, i didn't feel that'...that was in front of her boyfriend... the girl was quite pissed already.. the girl didn't do anything wrong in my life.. why all these kind of negative things come into my life???
the girl was so upset about this.. the girl have no road.. the girl thought of committing suicide.. but she knew that was not the right choice.. she chose my family.. because she knew they needed me.. so she quit it.. she didn't do anything stupid..
She and her friends patched back together.. but still the same problem occurred... until one day... the girl thought that trusting people is all liesssss....so she started to hate everyone.. so she don't want to be upset again.. she had fed up of everything.. she don't want to hurt her heart anymore. it's not good for future..
her exams results getting worst and worst because of the boy she loved and her friends..
so, one day.. her good friend who is the girl(the one don't have boyfriend).. she told the girl that she wanted to meet her.. the girl said for what??? her friend said just meet only.. long time didn't meet.. the girl felt suspicious.. but she gave chance to her friend because she didn't lied to her before.. so the next day.. after the girl's exam.. the girl felt that something told her not to go.. but she insisted want to go..so end up they met up... for about 15 minutes later.. a boy came. she knew something was up... so the girl was regretted trusting her only friend.. the another girl who has boyfriend came too.. so the girl was really shocked.. she saw her friend acted like nothing.. didn't even care for the girl's feelings... none of them care of the girl's feeling.. so the girl felt so hurt and anger inside her heart.. she was dismissed to go to the washroom.. she called her brother who always stand up for her.. he told her that 'don't so trust friends.. faster come back'...
so she was in tears.. but she can control it.. because she was a good actress.. LOL.. =P
okiee.. so... back to the point... her eyes was red... her friend suddenly felt guilty... end up.. the girl who has boyfriend.. keep denying and lying... no one knows.. only God knew it...even the girl said those things to argue back.. but her friend kept saying no no no... so what for to meet... the girl don't want to meet, it's because that her friend was a liar.. if someone loves to lie.. no point argue, no point make up a meeting...
so when the girl went home.. she sms her friend.. saying that.. ' i didn't know you were lying to me too. how can I trust you in future.. 3 times you lied to me.. i gave you chance.. what about now???'
so the next day... she removed me from a social network.. the girl was upset... but after few days.. her friend sms her... the girl was in her class.. so she couldn't reply.. as usual..her friend thought she did not want to friend her anymore.. so she sms the girl again.. the girl kept thinking... maybe she should not cause trouble.. so just friend back..
so everything goes normal.. until one day... the girl who has boyfriend always love to lie.. she always lies to the girl.. so the the girl couldn't stand anymore.. telling her boyfriend.. why his girlfriend always lie to me.. it's damn not worth to lie.. =___='''
then they keep arguing because of the girl..
it's not the girl's problem.. who ask the that girl to lie??? so the next day... when both of them in citc.. that girl came out and scolded the the girl.. the girl felt damn pissed and started to tell everything... so that girl bang the door.. even the girl's friend scared and ran away... but the girl did not afraid.. she knew she was shocked by she stand it.. LOL.. *pro* =P
then the girl stopped the conversation because the lecturer called her...
that night.. the girl kept thinking... is there a trust in life??? maybe love with family got... what about trust and promise??? hmm...
so... the next day... that girl who has boyfriend removed the girl form a social network.. even the boy... and the boy even sms the girl.. wow... that's so not like the girl.. that's so like the boy's girlfriend...
and all that girl thinks about is the girl loves her boyfriend.. =.='' pfftt!!... she didn't love him at all... just a brother.. =.='' LOL...
so.... day by day...her friend still together with that girl.. so the girl still felt hurt and depress.. feeling that her friend might treating her as another person.. not an important person... so.. she maybe finally understands everything... friends and outsiders might not make her happy..
so day by day.. she tried her best to stay at home quietly and be with her family.. but things changed... the girl feeling better and have a happy life with her family.. she found out that the only trust and only love is her family.. only her family will always love her and won't blame her anything.. even if blame her.. it's her own mistakes... but.. she still thinking ... what about promise???
she might waiting for her prince to come.. but let's see.. maybe in future??? maybe that's the promise she could finds???
who knows.. =)
i might doing this in maplestory movie too...=)
it's like a life cycle.. LOL.. =P
stay tuned.. it's really a true story.. ^.^''
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