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I hope time can solve all of my problems that i am facing now.. Life is so sour now... But i only know it could not be forever~~ If one day, i meet you again, What will my feelings? If one day, I see you again~~ What will you say to me? If one day, we bang each other~~ What will you do to me? If one day, I find you again~~ What will you do? If one day, we forget each other~~ What will we think about? If one day, I see you with a girl~~ What will I think? If one day, i success in other industry~~ What will you see on me? If one day, I go to your place~~ What will you do? If one day, you see me sitting at the beach~~ What will you tell me? If one day, i change myself~~ What will you think of me? Life as a student may has a sour relationship, but, What about life as a employee? Suppose to be written? Suppose to be by God? Suppose to be fate? What if we do it? Can we? I do not know.. Time only lets us ...

i realize that actually i was the cruel one... do you know??? do you know???~~ what you did to me were right.. i am so mean that last time since we are together, i keep disturbing you, and maybe you just stand your feeling and think of me.. i never think of anything.. i am so mean.. i only think that with you will happy.. i only think of happy... i never think about your feelings... you feel it is very mean right??? and i had affected  you too! ='( this is the serious part.. i am so mean and bad.. i never think of your feelings before.. i only think about happiness.. i do not know what you are thinking right now.. but one thing for sure, i know that you want to be a successful man... so be it..!! yun yun will support you... yun yun will support liang liang!! i am the one who is cruel..!! really cruel...! because of me, you give and take with me.. because of me, your studies drop... and i never realize these all are very important for you.. if you accept ...

yesterday went for a movie with my family.. my brother and I have free ticket because our birthday is on april.. the movie was quite nice.. at the beginning so boring.. mummy keep want to sleep.. i also feel like sleeping..but i can't lay down on anyone.. so i just watch lor.. haizz.. i saw so many couple together... i feel so jealous and upset.. when only my time come leh??? see my future lor.. good luck in future.. !

what mummy said are all true... now only i realize.. sorry cannot tell out here... i promise them will study properly and get degree... my aim...i know i can... people can..why not me...???! i promise won't think anything else already.. maybe give me some time... time will make me forget everything.. but seriously take years to forget everything.... >< and i must be more mature.. and dependable... i can do housework... i can cook, i can make cake, i can wash clothes, i can clean house, i can wash plates,... and many many more.. so now my weaknesses are only education and my bad temper i have to be more mature and increase the level of my education, and also be good temper.. ! no one can stand my bad temper, i know!! even my brother also cannot stand.. so i have to change..! I HAVE TO!.. and if i never change, no boy will want me.. now i already change my style of wearing.. i wear blouse and shorts.. and wear sandles. no more T-shirts, no more long pan...

this long holiday...my semester break, i was thinking of what can i do ... without him... i should carry on with my life... i just make as he is my admirer... like i used to like my friends last time.. maybe now i understand.. but i still not yet understand 100% because i am still young.. i still need to learn more.. i got to be more mature.. and gain more experience in life.. so far i get quite a lot of knowledge.. but i still need to learn more.. there are much more thing i need to do in life... i cannot just depend on him.. because a person must always depend on himself/herself... so i have to depend on my own.. i cannot depend on anyone in future.. you make me understand..but not that much.. i got to learn by my own.. since i with you, i always depend on you.. cannot..i must also depend on myself.. cannot always depend on you.. so now you and i are far distance... we stay so far.. but, i hope that our relationship can be back by years come.. maybe after g...

i feel that i really need to stop everything first at the moment.. maybe i think too much.. or maybe it is end.. or maybe it is dream.. i should be more mature.. not childish.. =.= and also... i have my daddy, mummy, two brothers.. my best friends, my close friends, my good friends, and my friends.. so i must appreciate my life.. no boy also nevermind! I CAN LIVE... I CAN LIVE WITHOUT YOU.. LOL.. start new life tomorrow.. make sure i can do what i can... be more understanding.. be more mature, be more smarter, be more logical, and many more lar. LOL i think i should.. i should not think of you anymore.. until i graduate.. maybe i will find you... or you will find me.. who knows... this is fate..=.=' we cannot change...LOL so see ya... see my future how is goes.. xD

i just don't understand why nowadays people want to be alone.. like example, they want to do their own things... example for boy, if a boy, he don't want his girlfriend to disturb, or his friends... or whoever lar... he just don't want them to disturb him.. what he want to do, he just do.. ya... of cause what he want can do... but he got think of his parents and girlfriend's feelings??? he less spend time with them... i want to ask... cousin or girlfriend more important??? friends or girlfriend more important??? i know! parents are more important than girlfriend... so it is okie if he go out with parents.. but he less spend time with girlfriend, spend more time with parents, sure his girlfriend don't really mind right??? i know some mind... for me, i mind... if he too much spend time with parents.. and never even sms or call his girlfriend, sure his girlfriend angry mar... and also, if he keep saying busy busy, ...

today feel quite different eh.. hmm, my mind still got disturbing... and also think, hmmm, i also don't know how... =.= but now i feel a little angry lor... how can a person so kind give you a handphone and you say 'shit phone' ??? isn't it terrible ??? =.= and that phone is good eh, my brother used it for so long eh, you think you are who wor??? people so kind think of you, and give you this phone, you say this phone no good... =.= how can... you only make that person sad eh... if he not ignoring me now ah, i sure tell him already.... and he don't know you say this eh.... anyways, that's not my problem.. but you have to appreciate it lor... don't make that person upset ya.. if he look at your status how wor... hmm....

I do not know whether I should make this decision or not... Can you all see my face??? How depress am I now??? Since that day until now, I know this face is ulgy.. Who will not say so~~ See this face also know~~ I was thinking and thinking along my semester break, I have been crying and have a heart ache every night, I just do not know why you suddenly ignore me, There must be a reason, But I really want to know, I do not want like last time, You ignore me at first time, now is second time ='( I just don't know what I should do~~ Should I wait or not to wait for him to call me back??? some people told me not to wait, just ignore as he ignore me, some people told me just wait, he might call me back one day, I don't know!! I was wrong in saying rude words, I am truly sorry, I will change my bad temper, I will change myself, Wear nicer in public, I will change myself, To be more smarter in studies, I will change myself, To be more thinner, I will c...

so many girls also got bad temper... so many boys also got bad temper.... why are you so sensitive if i say anything wrong~~ what do you want actually??? ='( i saw so many girls got bad temper also break up with their boyfriends, then you also like that??? ='( cannot give me a chance??? T_T what exactly do you want??? i read my whole blog again, and you told me that you want to concentrate on studies, will find me back soon after you graduate... is that what you mean??? i will wait for you, but not forever~~ because i need life too..=') if you really don't want me, it is hard for me to forget you, only when i like another boy, and i just don't know why some people like don't want to talk with me..='( why???~~ ='( one day if i got go to penang, if i go there with friends, i will find you okey~~ i hope that time you no girlfriend~~ i hope you still wait for me~~ now we concentrate on study lor huh.. like what you said last time, ...

I cannot sleep because of thinking of you too much.. my mind.. cannot control... WHY YOU TREAT ME LIKE THIS??? IGNORING ME~~ SO MEAN~~ i really felt disappointed... what you told me was all lie... your uncles and aunties saying that KL people bad right???  Penang people who are the one bad! my mummy and daddy never say anything about you, they just against me, why i very close to you.. that's all.. they never say you bad or penang people bad..! your uncles, aunties, mummy and daddy said i bad hor??? that's why they don't let you come KL anymore hor??? why they have to think like that??? you know that my family treat you nice... seriously if i know you will ignore me like this... if i KNOW EARLIER, i will do it to you first.. you!! don't have heart wan!! HURT ME SO BAD! ACTIONS ARE MORE HURTFUL THAN WORDS OKEY! you..! going to get it form me soon... one day if i go penang, i will do you until you feel hurt like how i feel now... !! HURM!!

people who think that i am stupid, low standard in my life, low status, everything down, and even look down at me~~ YOU BETTER WATCHED OUT!! some people just do not understand people feelings~~ WHY WHY WHY AND WHY WHY???!!! People do apologize for their mistakes, people do mistakes! People do wrong in their studies, some are not so intelligent! People are not perfect! God created us! WE ARE NOT PERFECT! FINE! If you want to find someone perfect as your friend, lover, or whosoever~ then you ARE WRONG! NO ONE IN THIS WORLD IS PERFECT! I HATE IT! I am so going to do my revision now~ at 10.00pm I am going to watch television for an hour and continue my revision~ well~ my business subjects are weak!! I am so going to cope up and do my best in every subjects for the new semester! I AM SO GOING TO WIN THOSE WHO LOOK AT DOWN ME IN MY STUDIES AND MY CURRENT STATUS NOW! GET LOST IF I AM 'UP' NEXT TIME! I ONLY CARE THOSE WHO TREAT ME NICE!!!!! BEACHES!!!

 It's been 1 year plus already... you just want to let go like this??? ='( just to tell you... i really love you...please do not  leave me... last time when i was in high school and form 1, i have a boyfriend too. i got hurt quite badly and he disappointed me. So,  I tell myself do not get into a relationship until I finish study... I have been single around 3 years since high school. Now, I'm 18 years old and I really love this boy. I really do not want him to leave me like that. Even though, we have not meet yet but I keep thinking just awhile only. I hope he can wait for me too. The problem now is I cannot go to his place NOW! IT'S MY SEMESTER BREAK! I cried whole night thinking 'why my parent just do not want me to go and visit my beloved???' They do not know that I have a boyfriend. then my mum keeps asking me to study 1st. Not easy to get a kind boy okey. He is seriously my type. Whenever I feel sad or lonely, he is always there for me. He ...

If one day I really like him…. If one day I really love him…. What should I do??? If one day I keep thinking of him… If one day I keep dreaming of him… What’s the meaning of that??? If one day, my heart beat very fast… If one day, my dream just dream of him… What should I do??? If one day, my feelings never change… If one day, my dreams never change… What’s the meaning of that??? If one day, I meet him… If one day, I talk to him… What’s the relationship??? If one day, I am sad because of him… If one day, I cry because of him… What’s the feeling??? If one day, I see him standing alone… If one day, I see him reading… What should I do??? If one day, I see him talking with another girl… If one day, I see him walking with another… What’s the feeling??? So many things happen in life…I can’t list out everything… Those who have admires only they can feel the feelings… ...

i want say... this is not a fairytale... and we are not in heaven... and we are not in dream... and we are not in wonderland... i want do... that I'm hugging you.. that I'm laying on you... that I'm smiling to you... that I'm playing with you.. that I'm spending whole time with you... I want make... something nice for you.. example... cook for you.. try to make pudding for you.. bake a cake.. make buns.. and many more...=3 I wish that... I want stay with you.. I want see you every single day... I want work with you.. I want take care of you... I want go out with you.. I want in a relationship with you... I want engage with you.. I want marry you.. and I want you forever..=3 this is not my 3 wishes...i cannot tell out..because too many.. but I hope..i can achieve these all...^_^ can stay with my love once and mummy daddy...<3

i'm truly sorry on what i have done to you, no matter what i done bad things to you before, i hope you will forgive me one day, maybe now you still cannot accept, i just don't dare to say these all to you, and i don't know you got read or not, this holiday, my semester break, i want to do revision for my business subjects, i'm  very weak in this few subjects, and i don't know how long only i can forget you..='( until now,i still miss you, i want to hear your voice, i know you are busy, the thing that i angry is just why you can go out with cousins....='( this make me angry, because you tell me busy, but you never say this.. i thought you are working, but you lied me, how can go out with cousin on that day, we, just need to talk to settle this problem, but you keep ignoring my calls and text message that day, how i want to explain to you, and you just ignore me like this.. what do you mean by this?? last time you ignore me like this al...

i planned to sleep late abit..but not too late.... for this holiday, because i want to do my revise for my weak subjects, my brother taught me, and i am very appreciate... thank you gor gor..i love you.. <3 thank you for teaching.. and also, for my statistic, because of this boy who helped me, i really appreciate he taught me, this is the boy i really loved before, i don't know what is he thinking now, i don't know what is he aiming now, i don't know what is he thinking about me, whether he forgives or don't want to forgive me, i cannot force him, it is up to his decision, i just wish you good luck and success in your studies and work... =) remember i got loved you before, you are the one who taught me how to care people, you are the one who taught me how to do good things, you are the one who taught me how to love my parents, you are the one who could change my attitude, you are the one who taught me in studies, you are the one who could make m...

what should i do to continue my life??? mummy ask me to forget this boy first... daddy ask me to forget this boy too...>.< my friends ask me don't think too much.. gor gor say concentrate in studies...lol adui....don't know what to do right now.. now is my semester holiday... to tell you the truth.. everyday i dream of you... my heart still ache...='( what you promised me last time??? i don't know what you want... why don't want to tell me what you want??? ='( later people misunderstand you... haizz..... i know i wrong...i should not say rude words to you... but you cannot just let go everything like this... are you sure you want to do this??? last time i told you already... ' do you really want me' ( before we start relationship) then i ask you to think properly.. you said yes.. and now what.. why ignore me.... i very hate this kind of people wan you know... how we argue until so serious, also you...