i think i should

this long holiday...my semester break,
i was thinking of what can i do ...
without him...
i should carry on with my life...
i just make as he is my admirer...
like i used to like my friends last time..
maybe now i understand..
but i still not yet understand 100%
because i am still young..
i still need to learn more..
i got to be more mature..
and gain more experience in life..
so far i get quite a lot of knowledge..
but i still need to learn more..
there are much more thing i need to do in life...
i cannot just depend on him..
because a person must always depend on himself/herself...
so i have to depend on my own..
i cannot depend on anyone in future..
you make me understand..but not that much..
i got to learn by my own..
since i with you, i always depend on you..
cannot..i must also depend on myself..
cannot always depend on you..
so now you and i are far distance...
we stay so far..
but, i hope that our relationship can be back by years come..
maybe after graduate??? or maybe we get to see each other one day at a place???
maybe in Kuala Lumpur or Penang???
who knows right???
it is fate..
but
i hope you will forgive me soon...
i guess that time, i will be mature already..
my brother told me that he is mature at the age of 22..
so yea. and girls are slower to be mature..you know???

i should be more mature like i said..
i cannot be childish anymore..
and also, i got to change my bad temper....
i should be as cool and chill like a ice..
cannot like a hot water...
bad temper = childish..
lol...and i should just treat my future lover as a best friend..
because if i treat him as someone special, i might hurt him again..
so i better treat him as my best friend..
i got to control my feelings...
now my mind still unstable..
hopefully that my coming new semester..
i can improve in my cgpa..
and proceed to get my diploma..
and hopefully i can go to degree..
well..that's all... hopefully YOU will remember me...
even though we are far apart..
i really hope our relationship can stand until we die..lol
as a lover or as a friend,
i do not mind..
because i do not like to break a relationship..
i do not like sour relationship..
i do not like enemy..
and i do not have enemy..
i only have admirers,
so yea...
see my future.... hopefully it will be better and sweeter.. =)

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