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Yar... new semester, but for me it's old..=.='' I just need to work hard... tomorrow is my new/old semester... also it's my first class of the semester... but I don't really go to school because I am yet to be cure... hmm... I just hope I can go through this diploma... I just wonder why.. why it's so hard to get diploma... i really envy my friends, relatives and brother... They all can get certificate but yet to be me.. =( i really want... I worked very hard.... just... haizz... I also don't know what to say... well.. just work hard... timetable haven't come out, so I got to go to school.. even submit my form.. you know my letter.. hospital.. lol... and also take some pictures.. xD... after settle everything.. I come back home.. pisshhh... lol... if my friends are not there, I don't give a damn larh.. why should I wait for them.... hehe..=P okiee.. it's nearly time to sleep... I need to pack my things and wake up at 6am.. gerrr... (ma...

hmm... I am back... hehe >__<'' hmm... I wanted to sleep now but feel dizzy... lol.. I wanted to listen some music while sleeping. that's very nice feeling you know.... xD hmmmm... I also wanted to know... why I like to write lyrics and express my own feelings through my own lyrics??? and also, when I see people act in tv, I can feel those emotion... and also... and also.. why when I check updates about celebrities hobbies.... their hobbies are exactly mine??? It's not I wanted to be like them.. that's just my favourite hobbies... I really love to do them all... for example, listening music, writing lyrics, composing own music, and maybe eat.. lol.. and play computer... xD...hmm... I just wondering... how can I success??? I don't know I'm going to the right path.. =( I just hope there is a road for me to go... I don't want the road to be block.. please.. so now.. i'm going to sleep. well.. will continue tomorrow... night night... =)

I am seriously sad about my current life.. which is this year... I thought it would be better because last year was a terrible year... It was my break up.. and I couldn't take it... then this year... all the sudden, accidents happened to me.. it's damn freaking frustrating... =( tell me... what did I do wrong all these years ??? is it I didn't listen to my parents and got these consequences ??? I don't think... I did listen to them.. just that I need life outside.... =( really.... many things happened to me... and I'm really freaking sad... no one knows my feelings.. You see me happy... but inside is sad... You can't see it... and you knew it.. =( seriously i want my life change next year... I really hope I can see the happy and beautiful world with my family.... if God wants to take me with HIM... I did like to say I love you to my parents first... really.. I thought I was died during operation... really thank God for letting me live longer.. ...

hmm... what's about life huh??? o.O.. lol... heh.. it's just the same lorh...xD i have happy life.. but the thing is this year maybe not a good year for me.. =( it's  because many things happened to me... if i'm not mistaken... break up friendship... T.T i also don't know what's her and his problem..>___<'' i just know that i couldn't get along with her.. maybe because she jealous that her bf and i might like each other... but the thing is i don't like him.i mean no feelings.. just as a brother.. fine.. stop it.. lol.. so after that, when i was outing with my family except my eldest brother... you know what... somehow i pushed the trolley and dropped on the spot at the escalator... =.='' seriously damn hurt... then bus accident.. =.='' my head hurts... i nearly fainted when came down from the bus.. my head again.. =( that's why i nearly fainted.. LOL... thank God that i'm strong.. TEEHEE =P Imma strong ...

life sucks.. lol... =P but seriously sucks.. I said that I did planned everything before my exams what I wanted to do.. but end up, all the plans not worked.. =.='' just because of one thing... I had an operation in my stomach, because my stomach was painful.. it happened last Friday, 16 August 2013.. so I just waited.. maybe it was gastric... but I was wrong... Saturday and Sunday I vomited and the pain went down to my right side... =__='' seriously I don't know what's the problem... then after that, I.. myself walk like an old lady.. lol... then my parents brought me to hospital... hehe... end up doctor said that I suffered from appendice.... so I had to do an operation... it's so damn freaking pain... walao.. I tell you that day... OH MY GOODNESS man... I keep praying and praying, faster over... yes it's over now.. but it's damn freaking itchy and pain... right now.. right now I'm typing here... =.='' why I did operatio...

wish me luck wish me luck.... >___<''' i'm very scare... and stress.. lol... still can blog.. xD.... just blog before my exam... i'm going off these maybe 2 weeks.... hehe... hmm... i had planned what i want to do during semester break.. hopefully i can do it... must not be lazy... i just wish God make us,human be hardworking, not lazy.. i mean the word 'lazy'.. is not exist in dictionary...LOL... =P i know, there is a positive and negative manner... hehe... okiee.. time to do revision.. i will be be a nerd for these 2 weeks... =) then after that become a pro gamer/director/producer.... LOL.. just kidding... i wish i can be a director in the future.. but there  is no percentage.. means there is no possibility to do so.. sad...=( well.. just wait and see... it's 2.37am.. i'm still awake... my brother said that i had forgot him because i didn't cry anymore.. but just to tell out here, that actually i, myself don't know t...

what am I thinking now?? I was thinking about.... why I keep saying that... my family is the most important for me now??? because... first thing.. should I say about the past??? I think I should... it's a true story... this incident was in 2010... this girl met this boy during christmas time... they are far apart... but they knew they are in love... but didn't know that they are not meant to be together... they spent time together every night after the boy went back to his home... sometimes they are busy doing their own things. never talk for few days.. but they knew, their love will never fade.. that's what they thought.. but they didn't know there is something wrong between them.. the boy's parents don't allow him to get along with the girl.. maybe they thought that the girl was a bad girl for him.. so, the girl thought about leaving him for good.. but he did not want.. but after quite sometime, he boy couldn't stand anymore and tried about 3 time...

it's a happiieee dayyiieee... yarhh. happiieee dayyiiieee.... everydayy is a happyyy day... lol... =P today I suddenly missed my family especially my parents... i was in college... maybe i was lonely.. alone.. =( but it's okieee... i'm in my brother's room now..xDD... now. what i think is really hope exams finish.. because i want to make my drama.. Promise.. hehe... then i wanna make a movie.. eeeekkkk.... i want.. lol... =P faster finish... i hope i can really go through everything.. get A B C...NOT C- please. =.='' get A B..i want A B.. so focus.. and focus. ^___^'' and you know what???? i have 50 subscribers in youtube.. woohoo.. just 4 months... but i feel it's kinda long... =( it's okiee. keep going.. i want more subscribers... more and more... then i can become famous... ^___^'' hehe... i wanted to be somebody who can be a director and producer.. maybe direct cartoon??? lol.. produce music?? hehe.. combinations??? l...

First of all.. those who don't wish to read my blog, please leave.. if you think that I'm an emo person.. please leave.. I don't need you to read... it's my life, my blog.. I want to do what I like and express, it's my own problem... Now I can start... hehe... I couldn't tell what is my real feelings now... Sometimes I can still remember the person who I really loved before... But I keep wondering why I must deserve this ??? Is there an opportunity to get a better ones ??? the truth is .... the truth is.. I don't know how to express out.. but when I listen to the music lyrics, I felt hurt... sometimes I think back of the past... I don't know how to describe this feeling.. this is just so so wrong.. I really don't know how to overcome.... I don't wish to know the truth... but I really confuse.... What am I doing now??? Studying??? I wish to.... I really wish to...I really don't know what I was doing... Sometimes, I feel th...

what i do... i just cannot get it done.. why larh... =( why i so failure wan.. T.T i took 6 subjects.. what i got now??? why teacher don't let me pass everything.. =( it's just so sad.. I can't argue.. I can't do anything... feel so sad... I should study today.. but end up no mood.. listening to music made me feel better. but still very sad.. maybe I will do other things that I like... im blogging now... yarh... just to release my feelings.. i just feel very guilty.. =( why i cant do this.. it's for myself and my parents.... if i can't earn a lot of money, who will be taking care of my parents??  i promise my parents i will take care of them.. because they take care of me.,i must return a favour... this is just so sad... =( sad until cannot feel any feeling.. just........ haizzz.... what am I doing now??? =( i'm so scare.... i don't want to graduate alone.. =( why this world so unfair??? what did i do wrong??? why must be me??? all...

aiyooo... really larh.. why larh.. today so so and so.. haizz. don't want to say already... what i planned, end up not work.. lol... well.. just move on and be happy no matter what... what to do when I'm bring emo??? =.='' hmm.. play candy crash??? watch maplestory?? or what??? i really want to graduate... but it's damn freaking hard.. =( why larh i so stupid choose this course?? why larh.. i shouldn't have follow people around me... now what... who regret?? me myself regret... fine.. whatever larh... LOL.. just do what I can.. after this accounting course, i will do other things.. do what??? secret.. lol... =P xD okieee.. i want to play candy crush, then do other things.. can't tell.. haha.. =P will blog latersss.. ^__^''

I.. feel great these few days.. but due to my health.. I felt weak...lol.. >< sad... hmm..so far my coursework marks are just barely pass.. so I have to work even more harder.. neh.. there are more many things.... just feeling lucky because I can make it through... and there are more.. xD feeling lucky because I got friends who care for me.. who are my classmate( my group) want me to list their name.. i think no need.. lol... i know can already =P xD... there are pictures I want to show... xD.. then after that I have something to tell.. ^___^'' I went with my friend to KLCC... that time we watch despicable me 2.. lol.. kinda long.. but still I want to upload.. *felt excited*.. lol... hmm..well.. there are more... but I think next time I will upload.. it's like nearly 3am.. I slept just now.. too tired.. hmm... just wanted to say that I had successfully wrote one lyrics following by one instrument... I hope it's nice.. xD... after th...

I never angry to my best friend, unless she really did something ridiculous to me..lol.. just that, i was very heartbroken that she choose another person instead of me.. i wonder did she ever treat me as her best friend??? last time, i mean previous semester which is the 6th semester, whenever go to lecture, i want to sit with her, she let me to... even Moral she let... but what about now??? she is like avoiding me sitting with her.. i know, she wants to sit with that person.. but why when I ask first for today, she is like never think of my feelings??? whenever she has problem, she tells me, asking me what to do. how to solve.. but whenever she don't have, she is like pushing me away.. since i told her that i'm a repeat student, she acted differently.. it's like not my best friend anymore... we did have fun together... but i feel it is empty... do you know what is the meaning of 'empty'??? means i don't feel any special feelings... i know..i...

actually i have two classes for today.. but i skip one of them which is at 3.30pm.. lol.. it's because i know my mummy wanted to shop and shop.. sure i know not enough time.. haha.. still need to buy dinner for daddy and big brother... hmm... we went to Sungei Wang Plaza.. at first, i came back home from morning class which is 9.30am.. i walked with my friends to lrt.. teehee.. can't tell which lrt..=P xD then... reach back home, waited for mummy.. then reach to the destination( can't tell where) lol..=P haha then take a bus..(can't tell which bus) LOL..teehee.. so and so... then get down from the bus.. walk and walk luckily reach to Sungei Wang Plaza.. lol.. then we go and eat before shopping.. after eating this special noodle which is beef noodles.(the shop is Little Cow) then go shop and shop around... my gosh.. terribly larh... i hate this lady... so arrogant.. whatever larh.. don't care about her... =.='' so and so.....

okieesss... first of all.. i have many things to release out.. many many things... which i keep thinking yesterday... i.. actually don't like people ignore me when i ask questions.. because it's like i'm being embarrass... >___<'' i... actually don't like people ignore me when i'm near to them.. because i don't like to be alone... T__T i... actually want attention whenever i'm around people... because i want joy... =') i... actually kind of very sensitive about friendship... because i scare they will leave me for good... i... actually kind of very sensitive in relationship too.. because if i really love that person, i want that person always look at me first... i... actually very jealous when my best friend be with another one... it's like treating me as 2nd person.. i don't know whether she treated me as best friend or not... i also very jealous in relationship... i don't like that person i loved talks to another...

These photos are taken in Rawang.. credits to Mr. Lim.. It was a good talk from him... Hope that I can see him one day... hehe.. okieess... another few more pictures =) yayy... got nicer ones... haha... hehe.. actually these photos were long time ago..i think few months back.. i just want to share with everyone outside there.. ^___^'' okieess... no updates about my life.. teehe... no time to think about it...so... i'm going to do my work.. i have to study law.. which is a lot of things to study.. but i'm watching my drama first.. lol... today whole day play.. xD... okiee.. enough of playing... after this drama... i'm going to work out my notes.. hehee...=P good nights everyone... have a HAPPY SUNDAY...=)

hey hey hey.. just wondering... teehee.... hmm.... since my feelings is yet to be free. i'm here to tell you all something... how i treat people.. around me??? hehee first... how i treat my mother??? as usual... what i can do i will help her.. but if... ( touch wood)...something happens to us.. i will push her first and I will get the pain.. >___<'' no matter what happens, i will still make my mummy as first person..=) so.... how i treat my father??? same as my mother. =P xD how i treat my brothers??? hmm.. same larh.. lol... but not so as my parents.. xD =P bluek.. haha.. then... how i treat my best friend?? (for girl) i will share most of my things with her... and if we argue, i will try to be good to her... unless she did something i really can't forget.. then err.... if she really know she is wrong.. then.. then.. of course i forgive her larh.. haha.. then i also want to spend with her most time.. hehe...xD.. and i treat her like my siste...

i really hate people making promise, then didn't do it... hate them so much.. feeling like whacking them properly and nicely... damn pissed off whenever they break promise.. you know my face will turn to black??? don't do stupid thing in front of me... don't lie to me... do NOT ever lie to me.. if not i will not trust you anymore... ONE time... it's enough..enough hurt.. yarhh.. i keep inside my heart.... but true is i won't forget what you did to me... seriously i'm like a dumb ass sending you things and wishing you can give me back something... damn pissed off... you could have said i'm going for class, or i'm busy, couldn't meet you... next time when i see you.. i don't say hi to you.. how you feel??? sometimes, you are one kind person..... really... i don't understand you.. you even off your phone... =___='' whenever someone calls you, there will be a voicemail.. do you know people it so much??? urgent or important...

mummy went to cruise with her friends... 1st brother went to Port Dickson with his friends... 2nd brother went outstation for work... except daddy and I at home.... haizzz... i feel so lonely without them around... eventhough i got daddy.. but i still feel the house quite quiet... no laughing, no fighting, no arguing.. LOL... no happy happy.. haha... =P xD... hmm... if time pass very fast, then i have no time to do revision for my exam... i still has many things to do.. you see now what time??? nearly 4am.. i still doing my work... =___='' haha... xDD... listening music and doing research now...need to find more and more... no matter what, i have to do it... hmm... then if time pass slow... they will late come back... mummy and 1st brother will be coming back tomorrow.. hopefully fast.. hehe.. teehee.. i feel like blogging since kinda sleepy now... i want to sleep.. but don't want to leave my work here... very tired --> i'm referring to my brain... bu...

hmm... i was going to sleep because eyes want to close.. but before i go to bed... let me share something to you all... hehe.... i was watching a drama these few days.. and just finished watch everything.. lol.. i wasted like 18-20 hours for watching.. but i guess not... hehe... because i learn many things.... *yawn* so... i know music is all about feelings and emotions, so you can do it.... yup..it's true... but it's too bad i can't do it.... you know what??? after my this course.. i will take up music or designing.. hope that my parents won't refuse anymore... i want to go for my own passion and interest... not followed by people anymore... please respect my choice... =) i want to let people hear me.. i want to play piano and violin... hehe... must graduate as soon as possible, so i can study music or design.. depends lorh... haizz... okiee... got to sleep now.. i will continue tomorrow...i really couldn't stand the environment now... hmmm... nite ni...

it's starting more worst... =( my nose.. my throat... aiyooo.. very pain arh... lol... i just don't know how to breath properly... even my head so pain.. =( everywhere pain... haizz.. maybe i should go to sleep now.. it's just 11pm.. hehee... =P just blog awhile then... my brother's room here got sound.. sound like a bird... lol... XD and.... errr... tomorrow still got class... hmm.. lucky my class is until 12pm... but tuesday... =( until 5.30pm.. haizz..... so sad.... it's okie larh... i stay in the library or reading room... maybe i can bring some food... i just don't want to go out so often... got haze. make me feel so weak..=( well.... i also have my monthly thingy... lol... made me weaker... oh gosh..... T___T =( so sad right??? hahaa... nevermind larh... i think i go to sleep now.... wait!! pack my things then go to sleep.... hmmm... the drama still haven't watch finish...so far episode 7... got 15 episodes... walao eh.... tomorrow need...

i still don't understand what people thought.... i just want true friends who can share with me things.. why people so selfish??? greedy??? they want anything, they can ask from you.. they can be kind to you.. but whenever you ask them... what you get?? nothing.. serious nothing gain.. i really hate these kind of people... why larh... =___='' why larh life became worst and worst... the Y generations... please larh... feelings are important... i know... my emotional quotient is very high.. but i don't give a damn... i'm like this..i couldn't control... a little, i will be hurt... i'm very sensitive.. so what... any problem??? i have feelings, unlike you!! the worst thing in my life... selfishness..greediness.... even if you lied to me and i didn't know anything... but God knows.. i might not hurt... but my soul hurts.. it's okieee.... but i don't want to get hurt... i really go to the wrong industry... like my best friend told me ...

okiee.. now, it is like 2.20am?? lol... and i'm still awake.. what i'm doing?? assignments.. =) i want to finish everything. so i can do revision... hmm..... okieee.. since i want to rest my brain for awhile.. i want to blog for awhile.. ^__^ okiee... now i'm telling you all about my trip.. =] well... it started all on Saturday morning... hmm... 15 june 2013..i think... let me check my calender..lolzz after few seconds.. xD okieee.. yup... back...it's last saturday.... so... hmmm... should I upload to facebook??? let me think twice.. xD hmmm... okieee.... i know you all can't wait for the trip...xD i woke up at 6.30a and wash up of course.. haha... then i tickle my mummy to wake up too.. so both of us wake up.. i was rolling on my bed.. daddy woke me up... then i open my eyes.. i was dreaming of something nice.. =3 sooo... after that...... daddy drove us to outside of our neighbourhood.. we waited for the bus around 15 minutes.... as soon as t...

kicap factory... i ate fried chicken there.. mix with kicap...lol.. nice man.. lol... xD.... nowww.... next is.... wheat grass!! mummy and I keep drinking and drinking the wheat grass..  so nice.. haha... we bring back for gor gor and daddy also.. wahaha... noww.. next is.... i will explain more tomorrow.. see you.. =P