incomplete life

i still don't understand what people thought....
i just want true friends who can share with me things..
why people so selfish??? greedy???
they want anything, they can ask from you.. they can be kind to you..
but whenever you ask them... what you get?? nothing.. serious nothing gain..
i really hate these kind of people... why larh... =___=''
why larh life became worst and worst...
the Y generations... please larh... feelings are important...
i know... my emotional quotient is very high..
but i don't give a damn... i'm like this..i couldn't control...
a little, i will be hurt... i'm very sensitive.. so what...
any problem??? i have feelings, unlike you!!
the worst thing in my life... selfishness..greediness....
even if you lied to me and i didn't know anything...
but God knows.. i might not hurt... but my soul hurts..
it's okieee.... but i don't want to get hurt...
i really go to the wrong industry...
like my best friend told me yesterday... accounting students has low emotional quotient...
i don't know it's true or false... but i feel that i was very different from other students in my course..
they always want to win win win... not to lose.. if lose, sure feel jealous, maybe curse or whatsoever..
not happy for their friends... i really think the best way of getting out from this environment is to change course... but i still have a lot of time to complete my course... .. really.... really.... confused and depressed..
why i trust people so much ??? they can lie me anytime.... if they lie to me...they won't tell the truth which i don't like...
at least when i lie, i will tell the truth in the end.. or maybe feel guilty..
but sometimes i being selfish, it's because i feel angry of that person..the person treat me the same..
they still have no feelings...
' thinking --> don't want to give, then don't give larh..'
want to give then give....
i hate larh.. really hate...
and also.... people love to bring other people down...when they fail... their friends WON'T even help at all...
if i'm being too kind.. what's people reaction to me???
i got gain anything or not?? if i don't gain anything, it's fine... i'm okie with it...
but why you all must hurt me??? you don't give me anything is fine.
but if i really want help.. please help me if you can....
please... don't be one of them...
i guess you all  still don't understand me...
*sigh* i will make you all understand me one day.. =]
well...i want to confess.... it's stupid enough but i have to say it out...
it's like 1 and the half years.... my emotional quotient is getting higher... maybe it's stop..
but why i still can think of 'him'??? dreaming of 'him' walking away...=(
i felt hurt.. sometimes my thoughts told me not to forget him....
but i really want to forget him.. it's useless to remember him...
why..... why is so hard to forget a person..just a human..
i hope that in future, it won't happen like this again...
please... stop all these non-sense in my life....
you all don't know how it feels..

hmm... i just want to release my feelings...
it's nice to release your feelings...
and write about your life here... =)
it's late... nearly 3am..i want to continue my work... or maybe watch maplestory....hehe...
good nights... =)
* note = if you love someone, treat him or her the best person like your parents..don't regret for loving him/her =') *