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i don't want to suffer anymore....!! please release my sadness here.... i suffered for nearly 3 months already.... i want to concentrate in my studies.. but very hard and pressure... keep thinking of the person....='( why am i so weak??? is not life complicated... is the people who are the one complicated.. they make it... if they never make it, how can this happen...='( why..~~ ='( listen to Buddha song, just no effect...... i try not to think and concentrate still cannot.. is it need more songs??? i do what also no use... if i tell mummy daddy, they will scold me.. ='( they just do not understand my feelings... my feelings now very hurt... mummy just know how to think about my 2nd brother.. she just talk about other people problem..not mine...='( she do not know how i feel.. this 3 months, i have been very sad.. people just do not know my feelings.. i never laugh anymore.. i never smile anymore... just normal..or sad face... how long...

so fast at night already.... time to study... but why still thinking of you??? i got the feeling that i can forget everything for few years... maybe after graduate i still like this condition.. who knows right..... you told me your semester now is short semester.. so it is around 2 months right??? so your exam is around the corner right??? i wish you good luck! no matter what, try your best... i know you can do it... always trust yourself... 'pretty egg' can do it wan... ! remember.... 'PRETTY EGG' always the best...!! i said 'pretty egg' means your name la.. >< i cannot say here, if not people know... if you got come my blog.. i hope you remember that i got call you pretty egg before.. >< if you do not like..sorry lor.. i will not call again...HeeHee... anyways, now i got to study now... no mood to study... but have to.. if not i will spoil my own future.. ='( listening to Buddha song can make me peace... can make me co...

ok... truth is... AHHHHHHHHHH~~~ == >< i do not know laaaaaarrrrrrr........... i can become a crazy girl already!!!!!!! AMBOI!!! cakap ni cakap tu sangat senang kan??? HURM! let me talk english better..lol.. >/< say this and say that is very easy right??? you you you think that mouth and hand talk very easy hor... actions??? HAR!!!!! GOTCHA... >/< actions must depend on our feelings.... what i said might be false..might be true... but now i am going to tell the whole world.. although everyone who are beside me now especially my family, they told me to see far, see for my future... they told me to be successful.. if not... i will spoil my future.... they told me, do not care of other things LAR!... then i say... ok ok..... but still cannot... >/< i keep telling..especially my eldest brother.. i could not forget this person... he said, just do your part.. be a successful person.... then i have a bright future..not dark... do not give up.......

life so sad.... why??? got happy got sad! got angry got crazy! == but now my life is full of sadness... ='( i should be forgetting you already.. but why~~ why i still~~ ='( i do not want to suffer.... if a person really loves you, he/she will come back one day??? no matter what happen, he/she will come back one day??? why i am so weak???!! i want to be strong.. try not to think..but still like that.... is up to me...whether i can be strong...whether  i can take it.. ='( i do not want to suffer...do not want anymore...! ='( feeling like shouting on top of the mountain.... do you know how suffer am I now??? you!!.. ='( bad BOY! >< ='( really bad BOY! make me suffer for nearly 3 months... T______________T you do not know how much I LOVE YOU!!!!

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i will not... give up... give up what??? cannot tell to the whole world.. !! my thing, i do not want to tell.. cannot is it??? =P hmm... came back quite long already.. i ate noodles...for lunch... feel different today~~ i do not know why.. outside happy, but inside sad.. how to show my emotion??? today came back by lrt wangsa maju.. never go to monorail..because too hungry and want to save money, then faster go wangsa maju and sleep in lrt.. heh heh... actually not sleeping also == just closing eyes... if people touch me, i sure awake wan la... now feel so lonely and alone... ='( what should i do??? ok lor.. listening music and study.. do my homework.. why i no life wan... ='( later will blog again..... at night..... still got long way to go... yishh ! ='( cry..!! ='(

still so tired.. still so sleepy. but something distract my mind..then have to wake up.. ='( listening to Buddha song to chill up myself! no one can make me happy and forget everything.. so i have to be strong and i know i can do it.. just take time... time will heal everything... and i have to pray to Buddha a lot... i will not do stupid thing and trust too much, and also love too much anymore.. bullshit... >< ! arghhh!! if trust too much, love much, hope too much...== will die man.....arghh... anyways, got to go....! blog later again when come back from college... fight for future... and see what is going on in my life.. NO HURT AGAIN PLEASE! people who are no feelings, please step away from me... if not i whack you!! YISHH! ><

these people all huh, you think you are very great is it??? oh,please la... look at yourself.... who are you:??? you are nobody OK! please wake up.. you think that you can simply treat people this and that.. HAR! you do not even know how will people feel... you have feelings and heart or not??? think about you do things la ok... use your mentality please... and be more mature.. think wisely please... i know...i am not mature..BUT my thinking is mature ok.. do not judge me because i am who I AM! i just know what to do in my life.. if these people really do not want to friend with me.. fine... then go your life...i go my life.... i will never beg OK! i am not a beggar ya... so do not think that i very look up on you. HEH! NO MAN! don't want to friend??? ok lor.. no i am the one who waste.. YOU ARA THE ONE! people want to friend with you, you do not care.. HURM! people love you, you do not love them.. never appreciate... ! okEY LOR! we are in different ...