yes.. my current life...

I am seriously sad about my current life.. which is this year...
I thought it would be better because last year was a terrible year...
It was my break up.. and I couldn't take it...
then this year... all the sudden, accidents happened to me..
it's damn freaking frustrating... =(
tell me... what did I do wrong all these years ???
is it I didn't listen to my parents and got these consequences ???
I don't think... I did listen to them..
just that I need life outside.... =(
really.... many things happened to me...
and I'm really freaking sad...
no one knows my feelings..
You see me happy... but inside is sad...
You can't see it... and you knew it.. =(
seriously i want my life change next year...
I really hope I can see the happy and beautiful world with my family....
if God wants to take me with HIM... I did like to say I love you to my parents first...
really.. I thought I was died during operation...
really thank God for letting me live longer..
I love you so much God... but it's painful and suffering... =(
why me... =(
but please God.. don't do this to my family..
if anything happen to my family.. please change to me...
I hope YOU are looking at what I'm typing right now...
I want my brothers.. my father and mother to live happily..
no fighting and arguing..
I just want... 'happy'....
life is short.. and I knew it......
so.. please.. understand my feelings...
*sigh*.. please don't hurt me anymore..
I don't deserve these... =(

-The End-