Friends, relationship, and family..

Which one should I say out first?? My feelings is so weak right now.. I don't know what to do.. :(
I couldn't even concentrate in my class. I told some of my friends in college. None of them don't give a damn on me.. what the heck man.. :(
So sad.. :(

Ok..
well... i just wanna release my feelings.. :(

now I realize that my friends are just using me...
I know my personality is bad.. I don't know how to be better..
but I just wish that people can accept who am I...
why must see outer not inner??? :(
what I mean is people always see appearance not attitude/behaviour...
so sad.. :(
My feelings told me that my friends are just using me all along..
but I just couldn't accept it...
arrrhhhh... I feel so stupid... Why can't I accept it??!!!
If I keep thinking 'nonono' , end up I will be the one hurt...
whenever they need me, they use me..
whenever they don't need me, they just treat me like garbage...
sad.. really sad...
I'm a human who has feelings.. not a things which don't have feelings...
things also got feelings larh... haizzz....
WHY LARH.... :(

about relationship...
I wish I can just forget anything happen before that.. yea..
I don't want to mention about that anymore...
make me feel hurt.. tension.. stress...
i couldn't sleep properly these few days...
I just wish everything will be fine...
and I hope he and I can be friends...
like friends forever...

I decided to quit the game..
I will change my hobby....
maybe.... I will chat with him... but not often anymore...
I scare disturb him.. and I felt sorry...
all because of her.. our friendship is like want to break...
 I really don't understand... what's so good about her??
she is like controlling him NOT to be friends with any girls...
girls who are much more younger than  him... like 15??
she is like so... urghhh.. close minded..and immature..
somemore her age is like older than us..wow
fine.. don't want talk bad about her..
i really hate her lol...
just another party come.. and BOOM... LOL...

i just wish we can be friends...
fine.. hate you?? i don't hate you.. if i hate you, i might be blocking
and not talking to you anymore... lol..you are my friend.. why should I hate you??
if you don't give me the explanation and the truth.. then yea... I will block you
and don't want to talk to you anymore...but you didn't ignore me.. you replied..
that's last chance...
so now we just maintain our friendship... yea.. that's nice to hear....
haizz.. my feelings. omg... PAIN!!
yishhh


and lastly.. my family...
mummy always blame daddy.. like what the heck...
past is past... please go to the current and future...
i fed up larh.. keep listen this and that story..
it's like more than 100 XXXXX... WOW....
I just couldn't take it....
why she must blame him???
it's because he is poor???
don't know how to take care children??
don't know how to do housework???
if he poor, so??? don't compare...
and he knows how to take care children and also do housework..
arrgggghhhhh.......

I don't know larh.. so many things happened currently...
walao.. somemore my studies...
feel like dying....
:(
no one can help me.. walao...
tell friends also don't bother....
shit them.. this is call friends merh... ==
like what the hell man....
arghhh....
gerammmmm........ eeeeeeee..........
stress betul..... @@
fine fine....
will blog soon...

see ya....zzzzzz