i wrote this...

i don't know i should say out....
but i couldn't stand the feeling...
it's like knife cutting my heart..
every human has feelings...
when i see people, i greet them...
unless i never see them...
but people think that i have another person,
so like don't bother about them... ='(
i never think like this also...
why you have to think me until so bad... ='(

when i see people, i talk to them....
maybe Hi... or anything lor...
unless i never see them...
but people said i am rude... ='(
i am not rude also..
if i am rude.. my parents will not be happy...
whenever i with them, i always make them laugh....
they told me i have manners... but sometimes hot temper...
yes... i am hot temper when i really cannot stand...

why don't i act like what people did to me???
you have somebody else.. and you just ditch me away???
leaving me alone.... and act as i am a wall to you...
how can you treat me like that???
and when you need me.... you will be nice to me...
i really cannot stand...
who am i talking about???
just keep thinking and thinking...
you know what you had done to me...
do you know why people don't like to be ignored???
doesn't mean that you have to leave me alone...
i can be alone... but NOT to be IGNORED...
get it???
if i am being ignored.... i felt dissapointed and depress....
it's like you treat me as what???

like now... no one with me.. i am alone..
why??? because my friends are not here....
two of my close friends.. (they are couple lar.lol...) they go dating..
and my another two close friend.. has class...
i CAN be alone....but not all the time...
if not people will don't like us....
some people just has too many friends..
that's why they cannot feel it...
being alone is very scary....
it's like you are alone in this world by your own...

people don't understand.. because minority people get this...

and can i ask you something???

do i look like noob???
do i look like blur person???
what i meant that do i like a stupid dumbo???
although i am not good in my education and academic...
but i am good in other things...
and doesn't mean that i am not good in this and that...
you must ignore me and leave me alone...
you don't know how i feel...
you just follow your feelings only..
never follow peoples' feelings..

if next time you have a family...
you will do to your children like that???
just go to work.. then come back, just ignore your children???
i am not cursing or what....i am just telling the fact..
you shouldn't ignore people you know....
what if you are in my situation???
how will you feel???
never try before???
I HOPE GOD IS FAIR....

what people do is what they get in future...!
then they will know how they feel....

i care too much of peoples' feelings already....
i had tried my best.... not to care too much on peoples' feelings...
but this is me.... this is ME....
i cannot do it because my heart can feel it...
feel what??? feel the pain if i get it....
so i don't want to do to people....

if you ever want to do anything to people....
make sure you think first before doing the actions...
once you have done... it cannot reverse back...
why??? because time cannot reverse..
don't regret if that person is good to you..
but you did mistake and let go...!

appreciate those people who are good and always beside you...
if you regret.... BLAME YOURSELF!!