happy birthday to you =)

i don't care how people see me...
just let me tell everyone..
i am not desperate having boyfriend..
i just have deep feelings for this boy...
i always hope he will come back to my side...
i keep on waiting for him no matter what..
just that, i hope he will find me back one day..
i really like him... i really love him...
actually i thought of giving up...
i tried my super best... more than 100%
but still cannot... sometimes will think back about him...
i felt very depress.. no one will understand my feelings..
why??? some people never experience before..
but one of my friend, her name is Natalie.. she understands my feelings...
i feel happy when she gave me directions

now i want to wish someone...
i don't know why i still love him...
do you know what is his name???
his name is Ronald Liang...
his full name is Ronald Tan Liang...
i really love him... he stays in Penang...
i know i did many wrong things to him...
sometimes i got control him...
for example, i keep asking him, where he goes, what is he doing, what time he come back...
and also... don't let him hang out with friends often...
i often tell him not to do this and that... sometimes when my mood good only i let him do...
i already tell myself...
if he comes back to my life in future...
i promise myself.. and i also promise him...
i will give him more freedom... promise me that he will understands my feelings too...
i really love him.. just that i don't want him to leave me...
i don't know why i so love him..
i got date with other boys before... but he is only one who i love so much.. ='(
i really wish he come back...
if he give me one more chance... i really will change my attitude and behaviour...
what i say is what i mean... if i do wrong again.. i hope he understands that human is not perfect..
i will try my best to control my feelings...
i don't mind he stays in Penang..

already 7 months... i still got feelings for him..
i never even like or have feelings for another boy...
what i said is true...for so long already...
i was scared.. crying all along.. ='(
i also cannot concentrate on my studies sometimes...
sometimes i think of the memories when we are together...='(

now i don't want to think too much de...
i don't know whether he put his status true or not...
my friend saw and she said he is currently single...
i hope it is true lorh...
until now i still got feelings..
and what... i still remember his birthday..
he never wish me when my birthday... ='(
maybe that time he angry... but now i hope he no more angry...
just that he don't want me to disturb him...
i also don't know why... ='(
i know i wrong..when he busy also i still disturb him..
so i hope when he comes back to me one day,
i promise.. i will change...

i want to wish him happy birthday...
but tomorrow is Happy Deepavali..
how can i wish him???
i want to post letter to him..
but everywhere close..not open..
and i want to release all my feelings here...

i hope he got come to my blog and see this...

happy birthday to you...
i don't know whether you will come to my blog and see..
but i really hope you do... =)
this is my promise. do you remember???
i promise that every year i will be the first one who tell you..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

this is our memorable songs...

i wish you can remember these few songs...

thank God, the download is fast, because i have upgrade it...

ok...

like what i told everyone...

i don't care what other people's view on me..

i just do to show my true love...

sometimes people cannot express out their true love...

but i am already trying my best..

i am the type of girl who don't really know how to express love,

even though i am a romantic person...

haizz....

well...

if you come back to my life one day....

i promise you...

you see the differences on me...

i have changed...

just for you..

you want me to give you some example???

you asked me to be more girly.. haha..

like don't wear jeans when i am in shopping mall.. yes i did not wear anymore..

i wore shorts...sometimes skirts.. lol.. *.*

i never wear t-shirts anymore..

i wear very stylist now...

i lose weight...i mean i got thinner abit.. my weight i don't know..

but i am keeping myself fit..

what else you want???

i know how to cook, i know how to take care you...

i respect elderly nowadays...

you told me before...

if people want to say me, just let them say.. 

their mouth... they wrong...

i did that...unless i really cannot stand...

then i will burst out..

i am no longer that action, bossy, always think of myself anymore..

i changed a lot and learn a lot these 7 months...

i have a lots of regrets too...

if you give me one more chance...

i promise....

i will give you a better life...

will give you more freedom,

and if you come back one day...

promise me, don't leave me anymore..

because i don't want to suffer again..

already 2 times i suffer..

this is much more suffering...

since when i was form 3 and this year 19 years old...

if you come back to my life in future...

please don't ever leave me anymore...

I LOVE YOU!!

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

I HOPE YOU ENJOY YOUR DAYS...

and i hope your family and relatives will understand...

how i feel about you....

they were wrong judging me...

i am not a bad girl who want rich boy....

TAKE CARE...

I WILL ALWAYS SUPPORT YOU!!

FROM JAYIN

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