can we be friends??? please read this~

since we never talk for so long,
err, i realize something missing...missing as in friend lost.. i never mean anything else lar.. =)
you don't feel anything???
before telling you something,
i hope that you got come my blog and read this...
hmm... i got something to tell you...
but i don't dare to tell you because i scare you don't trust me anymore...
but what i said this time were true...really true...i have been thinking for so long,

if i can find you back, i sure grab you and tell you~~
what i want say to you now... these are the importance once...
whether you believe it or not, it's up to you..i cannot force you....
got once, you told me not to disturb you anymore, i never right???
but you hurt me after that, so i accidentally do this silly things..
before reading, actually i got do some birthday gifts for your mother in my another blog on april...
but i just too afraid to let you know.. i scare you will angry... =/

Message : (It might be long for you, but these are really important for me)

           I hope this time what I told you these, there is no more misunderstand and argument anymore.I still couldn't forget you but I can accept what you want now... I am~~ truly sorry for what I had done to you before...Maybe you don't know or don't like the way I treat you... So you thought I had not treated you good enough. Actually what I was doing is just too worry and care for you... If a person don't care and don't worry, will this person keep bothering you??? no right??? But, I am very sorry to made you hurt, angry, pissed, annoyed and disturbed. You told me before, we can be friends, but... close friend can??? because last time we used to be close friends...you and marilyn can be friends, why not us???  And actually i was the one who did all those silly things, like using my mummy phone to sms you.. because I was too extremely hurt at that time.. so I cannot control myself... I used my mummy phone to sms you,i just simply sms to scare you.. I hope you can forgive me this..just a sms,words only...just ignore and delete it ok??? don't involve anyone else...these are all my fault.. i was wrong..
I am sorry too because I released my emotions too much to you...I was just trying to show you how I feel on that time.. and telling you not to hurt me anymore...but now my heart can take the pain already.. because this time my heart..my emotions feel that life sure got sadness..just that my life is too happy..i never feel any sadness before until this time.. i never learn sadness yet.. although this is very sour and pain, but i hope i can release it soon...
I can forgive you for not keeping our promises and forgiving you on what you had done to me...IF, only you forgive me for what I did to you... you know, humans are NOT perfect.. We always do wrong things.. Do wrong things, we learn...learn from mistakes..right??? and humans always want to win,thinking they are always correct...='( I thought what I did were correct,but I realized they were wrong..
At the beginning, I was extremely hurt, so I couldn't control my feelings,I know that you only accept those people you know... so i used your cousin name...I am just feel too hurt and disappointed..Like everything we did, all gone forever.. =''( so I couldn't accept it.. I did that to show you how I feel.. I promise won't do that anymore...I know I was wrong, I followed my feelings too much...I should care for your feelings also... ='(
And, I know that both of us got do wrong things to each other. So I hope we CAN forgive each other... DO NOT forget each other.. remain our friendship..not good if we never keep in touch anymore.. make it sweet, so you and I have a good life although we are not mean to be together like you told me.. I don't like to be strangers and enemy to my friends too.. How they betrayed or hurt me, I still treat them as my friends.. you remember??? I did told you that some of my friends back-stepped me.. They want me to fail in my life... Yes, I got angry and got think of revenge, but when I think back, they are still humans,same as us...should forgive them =')
Besides that, I want to thank you for what you had done for me.. giving me gifts and spending time with me..although many times you hurt me, make me sad, scold me for no reason..lol.. you still make my life wonderful... you made me happy everyday... I never feel lonely and alone when you are around me..I appreciated the moments when we are together...
I hope you understand what I told you.. I just truly regret on what happened in the past..I just never realize what I did.. I hope we can forget the past.. Begin our friendship back like we first met playing viwawa... I know I was childish and playful..I will be mature soon..
You did told me to be nice to people, forgive what they done to us, forget the bad past, remember the good things, do not hate each other, and many more..You taught me these all because you want me to be a good girl, right??? Thank you for our taught...I still remember most of them..
I hope one day we can patch back and talk together again like Tom and Jerry. No matter how they argue, fight, or quarrel, they are still good friends. It's true..Not childish at all...


All I wrote here were truly from my heart...
It's up to you whether you want to believe or not..
Some people can forget what they had done, because they might think they are correct.
humans always think they are correct..you did told me this too...
So lastly... I hope I can find you back in future... I hope we can remain our friendship...
Take care and good luck in your future..

ps: if you somehow come my blog one day and read this section, please sms or call me, I never change my number because I scare I lost contact with my friends... Pleased to receive your good news too..=) and just don't hurt my feelings anymore ok.. ~~ don't say things that make me sad..==