U r my only one for sure


I know it’s hard two person together..
Where they live far far far apart..
But for me..yes..
I know…
Study comes 1st…
Be patient lar..
I tried my best to be patient..
Do you know how deeply hurt am I now???
There’s only one way we can meet and can be together…
That is when after we graduate…
After graduate..
I can meet u everyday if you want…
I feel sad when my mummy told me..
Don’t be so close with him..
But I have to listen to her..
Because she has a lot of experiences..
And I’m still immature…
I should listen to elderly..
So I told him…
I felt sad…
But I ‘acted’ like nothing happen..
I ‘acted’ like a normal person..
But in my heart always has ‘damage’
My heart is the one who get hurt..
Not me…
My heart is the one who get the pain..
Not me..
Not my eyes..not my ears..not my nose..not my mouth..
Not my hand..not my leg…not my body..
Neither my hair…
It’s internal. no one knows…
Only I’m, myself know…
Because it’s my heart…
I really hope one day we can meet thru…
Well…
U live far..me too live far..
Mummy daddy don’t really trust u..
Yes I know..
People said..
Wherever u know people/friends from internet..dont really trust..
But some is good…
Some is bad..
Some is bad and good..
No one knows..
Only they themselves know their own
What they did is what they get..
And..
What I did is what I get..
If I did good things, I will receive rewards..
If I did bad things, I will receive a cane…
Hmmm…
I’m so depressed now…
No one can help me…
No one can make me happy..
No one can cheer me up..
No one can make my life more happier..
I’m always alone by my own..
I have no accompany until I get U..
So I’m very appreciate if I have U..
I have no sister to accompany..
But I do have brothers..
But my brothers are busy…
I just cannot disturb them due to my loneliness…
My loneliness until is enough..
ENOUGH!
I don’t want anymore..
I don’t want to live alone..
I don’t want to live in a dark place..
I don’t want to live in a fear world..
If I do..
I’m fear of alive..
But I’m not afraid of death..
My feelings are so confused..
And congested…
I’m feeling so weak of myself..
I thought I’m strong..
But NO!
I’m wrong..
I’m actually weak..
Very weak…
ENOUGH!..
LONELINESS IS ENOUGH!! =(

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