i love you and please don't say hurtful words anymore ='(
Since 3 years I never like or love anyone until so serious…
At the last time I got hurt is when I was form 1…
That was when my friend told me that two boys like me.
Then one of them talk with me through online and ask me to meet at bookshop…
I keep waiting for him everyday during recess…
But he did not turn up..
So I got quite sad because it is like I got cheated..
Then another boy…
The way he talk with me is like very caring for me..
But I don’t know him more yet…
So I don’t really bother him..
And I don’t know him that time until he said ‘Hi’ to me…
I was so innocent..yes..this is true because I did not think properly…
I was immature too…because I did not pick a boy who is caring for me..
That time, my feelings…
I just want a handsome (1st), kind (2nd )…
End up I got hurt..
My friend told me that he went off to overseas…
And yet…
After few months,
I had a very good friend, and started to like him,
For many months, we talk together…
I started to like him..
End up I got hurt too, because he hurt me..
He left me alone and do not bother me anymore…
He usually cares for me..
Therefore,
I starting to learn my mistakes,
Do not simply fall for handsome boys eventhough they treat you kind…
So, starting from that time, I tell myself, no falling in love until I finish my studies..
But after my spm, I meet this boy again…actually I know him since when I was form 3…
But because of some private reasons, he ignore me..i have feelings for him a bit..
So, I know there is no hope anymore to talk with him..so I just don’t care.. I acted as I don’t know him..
For around 3 years, many boys like me but I do not like them
Then, I like some boys, but they just don’t like me..
I don’t know why…><
So I become playgirl…not playgirl.. I mean…
I just play around with boys feelings…
Lol…
After my spm
I meet this boy again..
I was thinking who is him..i just talk to him.
End up I remember and like him back…
And he also like me…we get together…
Now…it’s nearly 1 year we have been together…
My message to him..
Love is not like playing games…
it is just not like you want to play games then u play…
u don’t want to play games, then u don’t care or ignore it…
No.. it is not like this…love is very serious…
You know that I’m a soft – hearted person right???
Then, you should know by last time…either yes or no..
If you think our future can be together…then we can be together…
If you think no..then no lar…
Why want to do like this???
You know or not,
What you did said to me this morning was very hurtful..
I never had been like this be
fore because my feelings for you are seriously very deep…
I don’t want to get hurt anymore..
If say anything that can break us up,
Then I confirm that you sure will regret…
I tell you… regret cannot change back everything..
For me, regret is like time..
Both of this cannot turn back….
I know your condition now…
But I still love you..very love you..not ‘like’ anymore…
Might be because when you came over here…
We spend time together and do all those things.. ( you should know)
Then my feelings for you become deeper…
I’m serious..not bluffing or playing..
I’m not playing..
No matter what happen, I will still love you…
I won’t leave you alone…
Promise you..
Until my last breath..
Then that I do not know..
Maybe you think that you meet a girl from internet,
You thinking she might faking up to you…
To me..NO…
I never do…I never lie to you before…
But just to tell you…
Only one thing is that I sleep late sometimes..
But that is not really a lie..but it is consider lie..><
I just want you to know…
I will love you until my last breath…
If I go to another world,
That I do not know I still love you or not..
I LOVE YOU <3
SINCERELY, your baby…<3
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