i'm frustrated... T_T

usually holiday during semester break..
i'm sure not happy wan..
because i have no freedom...
cannot go anywhere by myself..
when i want to go,
my parents sure ask..
where??? what i do???
and also sometimes...
don't go...or just say...'you go lar'
it's so rude until I tell myself..
there are no more asking them to go out anywhere...

i felt frustrated when i see my friends posted in facebook..
that they can go out with their friends/boyfriends/girlfriends or either can enjoy where they want to go..
what about me??? i'm already 19 years old this year..
i still go out with family...
yes...i do love going out with family..
i really love...
but can't they just understand that they should give me some freedom...
let me go out and work or make friends...or whatever lar...
let me do what i like during holidays...
of course i don't do such stupid things..
i'm not stupid okey...
i do know what's right and wrong...
i want faster time come...
after i graduate..
i want earn a lot of money..
then i can do whatever i like..
i can buy this and that...
and also I can go anywhere..
no worries anymore when i have money...
i can just spend what i like...
i seriously feel depress when comes to holiday....
really...
sleep, eat, play only...
then if i keep doing housework, sure will be bored right???
then if i also keep going with family...follow their 'will' sure will get bored also right???
i want go out alone with friends or go anywhere i like also cannot...
must follow their instruction wan...
when only i can be free???
when i go 21 years old???
or when i start working huh???
i don't like this kind of life lar...
just study study study..
never give me what i want...
is so damn frustrating...
if you have this feeling, you should know...
now i want sleep....
i'm writing this because i can feel that my emotion is getting worse..
so i better write before i get mad..
i can easily lose my temper...
and i cannot control...
i felt jealous too to my 2nd brother now...
what he wants, now my parents will give him..
when i want leh... they have to think first...
this is not fair you know...
how can you do like this to me...
my eldest brother is what I want..
he will consider whether okey or not then he will buy for me...although it is expensive..
haizzz...
i don't know how to say...
i just hope the time go very fast...
let me graduate fast....
so i can get out of this city and go to Penang..
i'm seriouly want to stay in Penang..
and work there...
i don't want to stay in KL anymore...
NO MORE....
i want to start a new life after i settle everything here...
i want a happy life...
what i want means i want....
what i don't want means i don't want...
you ask me what..i say NO means NO...
you ask me what..i say YES means YES...
this is me...
NO CHANGE in me until now...
once i say...is 100%..
no considering one...

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