moment comes~

now, the way i see the condition, you are not talking or bothering me anymore..
i do not know why you have changed...
change because of what???
change because of who???
i do not know....
but for now, i am still studying..
maybe i should give up of waiting for you...
maybe after graduate, if i ever remember you, i will find you back...
and if you ever remember me, i hope we can still remain as a friend...
if you do not want to be my lover, i do not mind, because love cannot force..
i only cherish of friendship..not more..
i just do not want anything in my life to be very sour especially friendship and family....love and care are the most important in my life...
money is not so important for me, but we still need to earn money because we need to live and do not want to argue...quarrel...or fight...you told me before... no money, a husband and wife can fight...maybe because of children..maybe because of household...we will never know...
now is up to God..
if i ever not giving up, i might spoil my future...
still waiting, still thinking, still wondering, still missing, still loving you
i cannot even concentrate on my studies...
only you and God know what you are doing and what you want...
now is up to the fate...whether we can meet again in future...

to tell the whole world...
i am not giving up actually, i am just doing for the seek of you and my family...
i want to be a successful woman in future.....

if ever another boy come to my life, he will replace you..
but if no one come to my life, you are always in my heart..
i do not know why, when i like the person, and if i have to give up..
i still like the person..unless someone replace him...='(
it is hard for my feelings...
in facebook.. i put my status... it is not fake..
it is real.... to show the whole world who am I....
i do not want people to look  at me anymore...
i want to aim the highest level..
but i really hope one day, my 3 wishes will come true...

no one understand my feelings right now..
and no one knows what i want....
only God and I know....
i do not know about you,
what you think i do not know...
you might be lying to me all the time,
or what you have been telling is real...
i am still suffering.
you do not know...you could not feel...
you only follow your feelings...
you never see and feel how much i care and think about you...
sometimes i could not help because something block me..
so i cannot avoid...
same goes to you right??

anyways, see the future..
if i really cannot face the truth,
i will find you!