people nowadays...haizz.... ='(
my pet sister.. haiyaya...
if a boy want leave you already, you cannot do anything ma.... right???
just let it be..sad for awhile,( few days, few weeks, few months or even worst.. few years)...
just cry and emo until you forget the feelings...
no need to scold or make him shame...
you know??? very bad you know..
i am not like that...
i show my emotions on how i feel..
i never even think of making a person who left me shameful..
nono...very bad you know..
you can just show how you feel...
show that your feelings for him is real and make him regret because he left you...
you should make him regret and continue your life...
although you cannot stand the hatred or anger,
you have to stand...
for me, i have no hatred or anger or revenge...
because this is life..people choose their love...
these few days i keep crying at night before i sleep...
because maybe my feelings want to take out everything permanently,
then i can move on my life...
i am serious...
i never have hatred,anger and revenge to the person who hurt and make me sad or either angry?.....
i only very depress and dissapointed on how the person do this to me too...
anyways, this is life... actually i can live without him,
but the problem is our lifespan... ='(
we spend so long together and now just like that...
i cannot accept the fact..really~~
and my family, and friends said that i cannot live without him =_______=
no lar... aiyoyo.... of course i can live without him... he is not yet my husband also.. >.
but i really cannot accept the fact about our lifespan..
maybe he do not cares, but I DO!
i also do not know how long only can forget this person..
but i do not want to talk about it anymore....
people nowadays... haizzyaya.. don't know what feeling they got...
it is they think for themselves or what huh???
i also don't know.. i am not them also...
anyways, to the people out there,
you should curse or say bad things to people especially to couples who just broke up....
cannot cannot....
you cannot... lol...
you just show him/her how you feel...
then he/she will realize... if he/she never realize then i don't know what to say...
curse and saying bad things about people very bad eh...
at worst also you show him/her how you feel lar...
show him/her that actually if he/she leaves you, then tell everything directly...
show what you have done to him/her...
don't care what matter.. just bring out your goods and bads...
show him/her how much he/she is mean to your life...
then after that, if he/she really does not want you anymore,
then you should give up...
as for me... i already give up..
i also know that now my life is to study...not in a relationship...
i was very childish last time and very playful..
during high school, when i am back from school,
i did not finish up my homework and i played computer.. play games..
then when i am tired, i go and sleep...
i am serious.. i was really playful and never think about my future...
then i met this boy after form 5...
i think that was after my spm....
i was not feeling well...
and i lay on my brother's bed..lol..
and looking at his laptop...
opening facebook.. ( as usual) =___=
then i talk with him until we both fall in love..lol..
i don't want to mention it already can or not??
i just want to keep them as memories...~~
i don't want to say out.. sorry... >.<
and so, he usually encourages me to study properly and get to the highest level..
i was very stubborn... ( why?? =___=)
i never listen to him... i only act as i listen to him...because i want him to happy...
but in the end i also play and play...
start college at year 1 semester 1, i was still very playful and not serious about my future...
because i think i have not gone mature yet... so yea... i am still playful...
and i always never finish up my tutorial questions...
actually got... but sometimes no.. because i go online for hours...
usually play games... www.viwawa.com
this website very fun.. lol...
so.... until last semester... everything change...
everything changes my life..
suddenly i could not accept it...
it's been more than 2 months already....
i still cannot accept the fact....
what facts, i don't want to mention it out...
there's a lots...
so i realize that i being so childish, playful and so dependable on him...
i guess he really don't like the way i am...
that's why he leaves me.. ='''( *cry*
i hope my this semester i can get A and B...
i keep getting B and C in my first year...
so i hope my this 2nd year, i can change my fortune...
i want to be more mature... more dependable on myself..
what decision also i must do by my own...
i feel that if i depend on people...
people will think i very troublesome.. am i right???
and also, i hope i can earn a lot of money after graduate ( i hope i can graduate to the highest level)
earn more money then i can spend on what i like mar....
i love teddybears and big house.. lol...
and i like to travel...
maybe i want to do business..but i scare fail.. ='(
so i also don't know what will my future going to...
now is my study life...
i don't want to involve any relationship already...
if one day, i go to the place that the person live there...
what will it be huh??? >.<
and if i see him by accidentally how leh??? lol
if i bang him how??? LOL.....
then... aiya... whatever lar..
is all fate... >.<
because i really like to go to that place..( can't say out the place)
this place is my favorite place...
i always want to go there, but my mother and father always refuse.. ='(
they said very far.. and also i am still studying... T____T * cry again *
nevermind nevermind....
after i graduate... i will go there.. muahahaha....
now i should enjoy study...i should not think of him already..
but everytime i say, my head sure think wan.. =____=
don't know what problem my head... lol....
i just want to forget everything as soon as possible..
whether he said true or not, i already give up....
i want to get good results for my diploma, so i can proceed to advance diploma...
although now i still pressure... ( trying to aim Bs and As, forgetting him, and family problems...many more lar)
i still have to stand.....
yesterday mummy just scolded me...='(
she just don't understand my feelings lor...
it is very hard to forget the person you love and really care...
you don't feel it??? maybe..because you have no feelings... maybe???
i do not know....i need time...
i went temple yesterday got effect..
make me peace abit... but you know what???
my mummy keep saying all those things there and make me no peace...
why like that wan??? ='(
i already control my emotions...seriously hard to control...
but why couldn't she understand???
is it i am not her baby???
usually mother can understand her children...but i just don't know why my mother don't understand my feelings...
i silent..i don't want to say out..because i don't want you to worry...
i know you have pressure also... i know you work, come back need to do housework.... and also family problems...
that's why i silent... that day you keep scolding me and tell me don't give you trouble anymore...
FINE... i don't want to give you trouble anymore..but you please don't interfere me any other problems lar...
you tell me this and that make me more pressure....
i already told you so many times...and you repeat..you keep on repeat.. forget him and forget him..
if i forget him already, you think no effect already meh???
still got!
you don't know! ='(
you know my problems already... 3-4 problems... all occur in once..
who can stand??? you tell me lar..
don't give me any pressure already ok... =''(
i went temple yesterday to make myself peace... make me feel better...
no one could understand my feelings... ='(
what they do, they just do..
what they say, they just say out...=''(
i always care for other feelings.. until i really angry and i will say something..
and after few hours i will realize and say sorry to the person..
eventhough i know i am not wrong... i still say sorry..because i know.. i am rude...
i will blog later...or maybe tomorrow...
now i am still in college... it's already 6pm...
going off soon... i was thinking that, i don't want to online in facebook anymore..
only in college...
because i really want to forget everything.. ='(
it's suffering and pressuring...
i don't want life like this~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Buddha and Guan Yin....
helpppppp MEEEE! =''''''''(
if a boy want leave you already, you cannot do anything ma.... right???
just let it be..sad for awhile,( few days, few weeks, few months or even worst.. few years)...
just cry and emo until you forget the feelings...
no need to scold or make him shame...
you know??? very bad you know..
i am not like that...
i show my emotions on how i feel..
i never even think of making a person who left me shameful..
nono...very bad you know..
you can just show how you feel...
show that your feelings for him is real and make him regret because he left you...
you should make him regret and continue your life...
although you cannot stand the hatred or anger,
you have to stand...
for me, i have no hatred or anger or revenge...
because this is life..people choose their love...
these few days i keep crying at night before i sleep...
because maybe my feelings want to take out everything permanently,
then i can move on my life...
i am serious...
i never have hatred,anger and revenge to the person who hurt and make me sad or either angry?.....
i only very depress and dissapointed on how the person do this to me too...
anyways, this is life... actually i can live without him,
but the problem is our lifespan... ='(
we spend so long together and now just like that...
i cannot accept the fact..really~~
and my family, and friends said that i cannot live without him =_______=
no lar... aiyoyo.... of course i can live without him... he is not yet my husband also.. >.
but i really cannot accept the fact about our lifespan..
maybe he do not cares, but I DO!
i also do not know how long only can forget this person..
but i do not want to talk about it anymore....
people nowadays... haizzyaya.. don't know what feeling they got...
it is they think for themselves or what huh???
i also don't know.. i am not them also...
anyways, to the people out there,
you should curse or say bad things to people especially to couples who just broke up....
cannot cannot....
you cannot... lol...
you just show him/her how you feel...
then he/she will realize... if he/she never realize then i don't know what to say...
curse and saying bad things about people very bad eh...
at worst also you show him/her how you feel lar...
show him/her that actually if he/she leaves you, then tell everything directly...
show what you have done to him/her...
don't care what matter.. just bring out your goods and bads...
show him/her how much he/she is mean to your life...
then after that, if he/she really does not want you anymore,
then you should give up...
as for me... i already give up..
i also know that now my life is to study...not in a relationship...
i was very childish last time and very playful..
during high school, when i am back from school,
i did not finish up my homework and i played computer.. play games..
then when i am tired, i go and sleep...
i am serious.. i was really playful and never think about my future...
then i met this boy after form 5...
i think that was after my spm....
i was not feeling well...
and i lay on my brother's bed..lol..
and looking at his laptop...
opening facebook.. ( as usual) =___=
then i talk with him until we both fall in love..lol..
i don't want to mention it already can or not??
i just want to keep them as memories...~~
i don't want to say out.. sorry... >.<
and so, he usually encourages me to study properly and get to the highest level..
i was very stubborn... ( why?? =___=)
i never listen to him... i only act as i listen to him...because i want him to happy...
but in the end i also play and play...
start college at year 1 semester 1, i was still very playful and not serious about my future...
because i think i have not gone mature yet... so yea... i am still playful...
and i always never finish up my tutorial questions...
actually got... but sometimes no.. because i go online for hours...
usually play games... www.viwawa.com
this website very fun.. lol...
so.... until last semester... everything change...
everything changes my life..
suddenly i could not accept it...
it's been more than 2 months already....
i still cannot accept the fact....
what facts, i don't want to mention it out...
there's a lots...
so i realize that i being so childish, playful and so dependable on him...
i guess he really don't like the way i am...
that's why he leaves me.. ='''( *cry*
i hope my this semester i can get A and B...
i keep getting B and C in my first year...
so i hope my this 2nd year, i can change my fortune...
i want to be more mature... more dependable on myself..
what decision also i must do by my own...
i feel that if i depend on people...
people will think i very troublesome.. am i right???
and also, i hope i can earn a lot of money after graduate ( i hope i can graduate to the highest level)
earn more money then i can spend on what i like mar....
i love teddybears and big house.. lol...
and i like to travel...
maybe i want to do business..but i scare fail.. ='(
so i also don't know what will my future going to...
now is my study life...
i don't want to involve any relationship already...
if one day, i go to the place that the person live there...
what will it be huh??? >.<
and if i see him by accidentally how leh??? lol
if i bang him how??? LOL.....
then... aiya... whatever lar..
is all fate... >.<
because i really like to go to that place..( can't say out the place)
this place is my favorite place...
i always want to go there, but my mother and father always refuse.. ='(
they said very far.. and also i am still studying... T____T * cry again *
nevermind nevermind....
after i graduate... i will go there.. muahahaha....
now i should enjoy study...i should not think of him already..
but everytime i say, my head sure think wan.. =____=
don't know what problem my head... lol....
i just want to forget everything as soon as possible..
whether he said true or not, i already give up....
i want to get good results for my diploma, so i can proceed to advance diploma...
although now i still pressure... ( trying to aim Bs and As, forgetting him, and family problems...many more lar)
i still have to stand.....
yesterday mummy just scolded me...='(
she just don't understand my feelings lor...
it is very hard to forget the person you love and really care...
you don't feel it??? maybe..because you have no feelings... maybe???
i do not know....i need time...
i went temple yesterday got effect..
make me peace abit... but you know what???
my mummy keep saying all those things there and make me no peace...
why like that wan??? ='(
i already control my emotions...seriously hard to control...
but why couldn't she understand???
is it i am not her baby???
usually mother can understand her children...but i just don't know why my mother don't understand my feelings...
i silent..i don't want to say out..because i don't want you to worry...
i know you have pressure also... i know you work, come back need to do housework.... and also family problems...
that's why i silent... that day you keep scolding me and tell me don't give you trouble anymore...
FINE... i don't want to give you trouble anymore..but you please don't interfere me any other problems lar...
you tell me this and that make me more pressure....
i already told you so many times...and you repeat..you keep on repeat.. forget him and forget him..
if i forget him already, you think no effect already meh???
still got!
you don't know! ='(
you know my problems already... 3-4 problems... all occur in once..
who can stand??? you tell me lar..
don't give me any pressure already ok... =''(
i went temple yesterday to make myself peace... make me feel better...
no one could understand my feelings... ='(
what they do, they just do..
what they say, they just say out...=''(
i always care for other feelings.. until i really angry and i will say something..
and after few hours i will realize and say sorry to the person..
eventhough i know i am not wrong... i still say sorry..because i know.. i am rude...
i will blog later...or maybe tomorrow...
now i am still in college... it's already 6pm...
going off soon... i was thinking that, i don't want to online in facebook anymore..
only in college...
because i really want to forget everything.. ='(
it's suffering and pressuring...
i don't want life like this~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Buddha and Guan Yin....
helpppppp MEEEE! =''''''''(
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