The unexpected moments

I... was a lonely girl since when i was young,
People do not understand what I want,
but I managed to live until now,
I am already 19 years old and fighting for my future...
The person I used to love,
the person I used to care,
He is the one who make my life wonderful but he is no longer in my life,
Although I am still thinking of him..
but I need to be a successful woman as I promised him before...
Besides that, I couldn't keep in touch with him anymore...
Maybe in future... I do not know..
but truly speaking... I still miss him...
It is very hurtful and painful...
I hope this situation can cure my everything as fast as possible..
I do not want to hook up with any boys in future...
If really there is a kind and caring,
always know how I feel,
always know what I want,
always care of me,
do not hurt me until die,
I will make sure I will truly love him until I die..
I promise...
What i do not want now is I do not want to get hurt anymore...
I am a sensitive person...
I hope God knows it and will help me...
I really need someone who knows how I feel and care for me..

do not hurt me anymore..
I really hope this is the last time I got hurt..
I hope in future there is no more hurt anymore...
I wonder....
Why boys are impatient?
And why do people change their feelings so fast???

Mummy and daddy told me not to think anything...
but it is extremely though...
whenever i enter to my dream in wonderland..
I could see him smiling and waving at me..
i can hear that he is saying goodbye to me..
My heart hurts...and I woke up and look around..
Actually it was a dream..
And I couldn't sleep anymore..

No one protect me when I am flying anymore..
No one protect me when I am in danger anymore..
It is like all by my own now..
As I am growing up,
I really need someone who is always be by my side...
Supporting and encouraging me...

To tell the whole world,
What I really want, I will do...
Were I really go, I will go...
Who I really love, I will sincere....
When I really sad, I will cry....
Which I really care, I will make it..
How you treat me, I will react...

Life is so complicated...
We do not know what happen next...
Love is not complicated...
But people who are the one complicated...
They are the one who always change feelings...
I do not know the reason....
I am alone and lonely again...
I do not know what to do when I reach to my semester holidays....

Why my life now is so sour??? ='(

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