i think he will never come back anymore ='(

maybe i guess that he will never come back to me anymore.. ='(
hmm.. ='( i keep crying so hard since when i fall very sick.. it is like last week...
until now still not yet recover... whenever i come back home from college or anywhere..
i just feel very strange feeling... ='(
i want to ask...
if ever a person you so loved, one day he/she never talks to you again,
how do you feel???
if ever a person you so care, one day he/she ignore you, as though as like for so long,
how do you feel???

it's sad.. ='(
depressing... ='(
i don't want to suffer anymore..
but my feelings just come back...
it's too strong feeling...='(
why this time, i loved a person...
i could not let go??? ='(
it's so hard to let go this person...
why??? ='(
do i owe this person in my last life???
until now i still have strong feelings...
but i can accept to be friends...
i do not know whether this person wants to be friends with me anymore..
because there have an argument and misunderstanding...
then we never talk again... ='(
this person said we can be friends at first..
but i couldn't take the feeling easily....
i couldn't control. because i felt that i was going to lost someone in my life...
seeing this person like doesn't care about me..
i thought of giving up from my suffer...
but still couldn't..that's why i keep disturb this person to get attention..
until it blocks me... i have no rights to disturb anymore... ='(
this person may be don't want anything anymore... ='''(

why do human so selfish??? ='(
why they only care for their own feelings???
they do not care for other peoples' feelings???
it's so hurt...really...it's terribly hurt... ='(

now i felt like bury all my memories with this person...
put them in deep deep into the ocean...
until cannot see anymore... ='(
i really don't want to suffer anymore...
but i am just too weak...
anymore can help me??? ='(
what should i do???
this is the first time i couldn't forget a person i loved...
what i do reminding of this person.. ='(