mid term exam ~~ ='(

i don't know why cannot concentrate... =(
forced to study and concentrate... piak!! pee!! T____T
don't know what happen to me these days...
hmmm.... ='(
these few days no mood... i also don't know why, don't ask me...><
i went for counseling to book time.... i hope the counselor will give me advise on what i should do for my future..
when i see the problems in the paper, i was shocked...
i did not know that my life have many problems...
no wonder i become aggressive..lol... ='(
career... relationship.... pressure....
='( career...don't know i can success or not... T_T
relationship... previous relationship can forget or not...it's so hard... ='(
pressure... have to stand on every situation where i really cannot stand.. ='(
if i fight back my talking or control people, people will not like me..
and if i keep disturbing people, also they will not like me... ='(
then all my problems, i only can talk to myself...
no one will ever listen to me...='(
if i tell, some will get fed up, thinking that i am very troublesome...
then... others leh, think that i am very disturbing...
others... tell me don't think and do my own work..
if people got problem how to focus on their work~~
think properly la... ><
sometimes i feel like ending my life...
sometimes i think back of my parents growing me up so tired... ==
then i don't want to end my life..
and sometimes i was thinking that i need to live because of my parents and karma....
karma brings you back life because want you to correct all your mistakes you done before you come to this world.. am I right???
maybe i should realize... i got hurt this time so serious, maybe i owe the person... maybe last life i did to him...i only never realize...i just follow my feelings which is very bad??? ='(
i feel myself so bad...so mean...people said don't blame myself... but i really feel quite bad lor....
anyways, the person made this decision..what i can do now is to make that person regret of not having me...
but i don't want to revenge...i don't want to hate that person...
if one day we suddenly see each other, maybe i will just smile and walk away...
maybe that time i was walking??? who knows right???
i was thinking when i am working next time, i want to go to penang beach every week.. hahaha...
i want to relax there and listen to songs... lol.... very nice wan k... ><
i also don't know how long i can live... because now my stomach and head very pain...
my head pain... ='( then my stomach sometimes pain sometimes not pain..
i also don't know why.... ='(

well...i will blog soon...take care people... ~~

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