i don't know how to move on... =(

mix up by everyone...
i have many boys friends...many girls friends..
ok.. let us don't talk about my girls friends ok... i don't want to become lesbian again..lol
since when i was in primary school, many people called me lesbian..
because i am not interested in boys..LOL.... what the hell... ><
ok.. now...i mean when i was standard 5... i date a guy... and we like each other.. lol...
i think kinda long... just like..no love,..because last time we don't know how to love each other.. haha...
ok now.... nono... secondary school.... got people called me lesbian again.. LOL....
what the... hell... >< i just feel uneasy when people calling me lesbian...
i just don't like boys because i scare lar...last time i very of boys wan....
so i don't like to mix with boys... just that i got some boys.. but i never together with them...
first thing, it's because i don't want to get hurt.... because i remembered when i was form 1.. i got hurt by my good friend... he suddenly leave me alone... so i thought of don't want any relationship anymore...
well... then i forget him around i think half a year... i liked him so much for 2 months... and i forget him around 6 months... haizz... then another guy enter my world... this is very bad lor...i liked him 2 years ++ oh my... until form 4 i guess... then another guy come into my world.. i liked him until after my spm...
and here it goes.... another guy challenge me... and i was thinking he is my last guy... because i don't want to get hurt anymore...
you want to know who is him??? he is the one.. my ex.... at first... january... we start to be together... that time i still no love for him... until around march... i guess we talk a lot and spend time together most of the time... so my love for him grow....
until this year... since chinese new year...i feel that he changed... but i don't want to simply think...
and he don't let me call him names already... haizz....
that time my love really really true already.... and i was thinking if he is one... i will give him a better life...
i will try my best....
now... i don't know how to move on...
yes...i have many friends .....
but all of them are not my type... means like... most of them are taken???
most of them different than me???
most of them like that and i like this??? they like this and i like that???
do you know what i meant???
my ex and I... we have many similar interest.. that's why i really him...
we can spend our time doing same things together...
now i don't know how to move on...
so many months.... how??? anyone can tell me???
i feel so lonely.... like forever alone.. =(
when can i get a new boyfriend???
i still love him.... where are you now???

my love for you is real...
no matter where you go...
i will always bless you....<3 p="p">

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