i wonder and wonder~~ ='(
i wonder.......
example me~~
i love a boy so long... so long already...
this is call what love??? true love or puppy love???
and if a person, i called it 'A'.......
love a person.. I called it 'B'....
A and B love each other so much....
and one day A left B.....
then A said that it promises to wait for B.. for some kind of reason...
but in the end A has another partner...
what is this love means??? true love or puppy love???
my mummy ( my real mummy) told me that i love this boy was just puppy love.....
but i don't think so... because until now i still deep feelings for him...
and also... sometimes i see boys outside...some boys are a kind of him a little...
my heart ache.. ='( still ache like a knife cutting me....='(
i wonder... what love i had come true this time???
i know last time when i was young... since 6 years old... i love a boy.. and the boy loves me...
we promise to find each other in future.. but i did find him.... he seems to forget me already..
so i just give up....then when i reach to standard 5.... this boy likes me and wanted to be with me.. but i refused.. lol.. because my friend likes him... so i told him... don't come near me...go near her.. but he don't want... so i cannot do anything.. and in the end, teacher put us sit together.. and in the end.. standard 6 i like him.. lol...then comes to form 1... i starting to like another boy... this is the boy i couldn't forget until i meet this boy( my ex)... my friend who i liked him.... i think got around 3 years.. since form 1 until form 3 mid year..if i am not mistaken.. but i remember form 2 i like a boy also..because this guy i like never contact me anymore...then we contact again.... he is the one who contact me..i thought of forgetting him totally.. but he contacted me.. haizz.... then if i am not mistaken... i have a friend who is 2 years older than me.. we like each other too... I was form 3 that time..i think that was mid year.. lol..until he finish his spm and when he was 18 years old, in May.. he came to KL... but he is too busy... so we thought of letting go each other... and just be friends... we never hurt each other.. we just less talk. and our feelings go lesser and lesser...Thank God we did not meet yet...haha....
and i did like another boy when I was form 4... actually he was my best friend's friend... until finish form 5... somehow my ex said hi to me.. and i remember... we got talk before.... he is one who left me because of his ex... == and now he talks to me again.. fine... i forgive him this...i told him not to leave me anymore...
he promised.... but what is the promise for??? what he promised me are all broken down... ='(
if i know.. i should not meet him... since when i meet him last November... i thought he was the boy that I want to spend time for the rest of my life... i did promise him... if he willing to stay with me next time.. and treats me good, loyal and honest to me.. i will treat him like a prince... like example, he only goes to work.. the rest of the things which are doing housework, like cooking, baking, cleaning house.. washing clothes....and others.. i will do.... because i know that a person works... he/she will stress... hmm.. of course i will work... so can get more income.. haha....but i don't know why he must treat me like this..
just that i guess this might be my true love... just that he did not know how to appreciate me... he did wrong to me many times... i still say sorry to him.. lol.. he should say sorry to me... but in the end, i am the one who say... == i said sorry.. it's because i still want him.... it's because i still care and love him...
why must he said that got another girl love and care him??? i really never care and love him??? can prove it???
i can prove it how i care and love him...
after 12am.. i sure sms him... because he is in his teacher's house...
and i always wake him up for class.. because i don't want him to be late...
how tired am I also I will call him...if he late to class... sure lecturer will angry and sometimes might scold him.... if really happens. how i feel??? sad right??? so i wake myself up.. how tired also i do.. just for him...
and i let him have freedom also... he is the one who don't want.. he did told me... he wants to go Pulau Langkawi i guess, with his friends.. then i told him... as long as i am in his heart... as long as he loves me, the only person... i really did give him freedom... and in the end, he told me... he scare i don't like... i got say i don't like he go out with his friends meh??? sure not with all girls lar.. must be got boys.. how can all girls leh... lol.... sure must have boys wan mar... haha...
and also.... i always remind him stuff... like when he ask me to remind him something to bring to college... i will always remind him... and what he wants, i try my best to give him... i willing to help him in his studies also...
this is all not care and love???
tell me properly... what is actually care and love???
i really don't understand... i did my best... i know before we meet, i less care and love.. because i scare i get hurt again..so i pull backwards sometimes.... after meeting you..i have trusted you... just that day i was angry.. because you are lying to me.... you promised not to lie to me... because you lied me twice...i don't want to mention it..
i already told you before... i don't like the person i care and love lie to me..
i just don't understand what is love... love really...~~ haizzzz.... don't know how to say.....
if you are staying in KL, i already asked my mummy ( my close friend) to accompany me find you and talk with you... =/ well...you are staying in my favourite place....i will often go there when i start work... because i want to use that place as my vacation.... if i ever i see you again... i hope you walk away and don't let me see you anymore if you really don't want me anymore... if not i couldn't let you go.... because i still love you...
do you know how much I love you???
do you know how much i care for you???
do you know how much I worry for you???
you don't know.... ='(
that's why you did to me like these....
people outside look at me.. they think i am alright... but actually not yet...
just a little thing... i can laugh like crazy.. why???
because i am deeply hurt... no one can help me...
i only can cure myself..but really takes a lot of times..
i laugh.. it's because i want to bring out my sadness away...
no one knows how deep my hurt is...
how painful it feels...
now i have my mummy and daddy ( my close friends)
they are kind to me... i hope we our relationship can last forever too..
i don't want to lose my mummy and daddy too.... you two are my close friends...
if ever one day, i have a boyfriend, i hope we four can go vacation together..^o^
lastly~~ just wondering.... love is fate from God.. or you made yourself???
and it's true love when you love a person so long although you know it's no more hope or puppy love when you said you willing to wait for someone but in the end you love someone else???
who can tell me??? ='(
i need an answer...~~
example me~~
i love a boy so long... so long already...
this is call what love??? true love or puppy love???
and if a person, i called it 'A'.......
love a person.. I called it 'B'....
A and B love each other so much....
and one day A left B.....
then A said that it promises to wait for B.. for some kind of reason...
but in the end A has another partner...
what is this love means??? true love or puppy love???
my mummy ( my real mummy) told me that i love this boy was just puppy love.....
but i don't think so... because until now i still deep feelings for him...
and also... sometimes i see boys outside...some boys are a kind of him a little...
my heart ache.. ='( still ache like a knife cutting me....='(
i wonder... what love i had come true this time???
i know last time when i was young... since 6 years old... i love a boy.. and the boy loves me...
we promise to find each other in future.. but i did find him.... he seems to forget me already..
so i just give up....then when i reach to standard 5.... this boy likes me and wanted to be with me.. but i refused.. lol.. because my friend likes him... so i told him... don't come near me...go near her.. but he don't want... so i cannot do anything.. and in the end, teacher put us sit together.. and in the end.. standard 6 i like him.. lol...then comes to form 1... i starting to like another boy... this is the boy i couldn't forget until i meet this boy( my ex)... my friend who i liked him.... i think got around 3 years.. since form 1 until form 3 mid year..if i am not mistaken.. but i remember form 2 i like a boy also..because this guy i like never contact me anymore...then we contact again.... he is the one who contact me..i thought of forgetting him totally.. but he contacted me.. haizz.... then if i am not mistaken... i have a friend who is 2 years older than me.. we like each other too... I was form 3 that time..i think that was mid year.. lol..until he finish his spm and when he was 18 years old, in May.. he came to KL... but he is too busy... so we thought of letting go each other... and just be friends... we never hurt each other.. we just less talk. and our feelings go lesser and lesser...Thank God we did not meet yet...haha....
and i did like another boy when I was form 4... actually he was my best friend's friend... until finish form 5... somehow my ex said hi to me.. and i remember... we got talk before.... he is one who left me because of his ex... == and now he talks to me again.. fine... i forgive him this...i told him not to leave me anymore...
he promised.... but what is the promise for??? what he promised me are all broken down... ='(
if i know.. i should not meet him... since when i meet him last November... i thought he was the boy that I want to spend time for the rest of my life... i did promise him... if he willing to stay with me next time.. and treats me good, loyal and honest to me.. i will treat him like a prince... like example, he only goes to work.. the rest of the things which are doing housework, like cooking, baking, cleaning house.. washing clothes....and others.. i will do.... because i know that a person works... he/she will stress... hmm.. of course i will work... so can get more income.. haha....but i don't know why he must treat me like this..
just that i guess this might be my true love... just that he did not know how to appreciate me... he did wrong to me many times... i still say sorry to him.. lol.. he should say sorry to me... but in the end, i am the one who say... == i said sorry.. it's because i still want him.... it's because i still care and love him...
why must he said that got another girl love and care him??? i really never care and love him??? can prove it???
i can prove it how i care and love him...
after 12am.. i sure sms him... because he is in his teacher's house...
and i always wake him up for class.. because i don't want him to be late...
how tired am I also I will call him...if he late to class... sure lecturer will angry and sometimes might scold him.... if really happens. how i feel??? sad right??? so i wake myself up.. how tired also i do.. just for him...
and i let him have freedom also... he is the one who don't want.. he did told me... he wants to go Pulau Langkawi i guess, with his friends.. then i told him... as long as i am in his heart... as long as he loves me, the only person... i really did give him freedom... and in the end, he told me... he scare i don't like... i got say i don't like he go out with his friends meh??? sure not with all girls lar.. must be got boys.. how can all girls leh... lol.... sure must have boys wan mar... haha...
and also.... i always remind him stuff... like when he ask me to remind him something to bring to college... i will always remind him... and what he wants, i try my best to give him... i willing to help him in his studies also...
this is all not care and love???
tell me properly... what is actually care and love???
i really don't understand... i did my best... i know before we meet, i less care and love.. because i scare i get hurt again..so i pull backwards sometimes.... after meeting you..i have trusted you... just that day i was angry.. because you are lying to me.... you promised not to lie to me... because you lied me twice...i don't want to mention it..
i already told you before... i don't like the person i care and love lie to me..
i just don't understand what is love... love really...~~ haizzzz.... don't know how to say.....
if you are staying in KL, i already asked my mummy ( my close friend) to accompany me find you and talk with you... =/ well...you are staying in my favourite place....i will often go there when i start work... because i want to use that place as my vacation.... if i ever i see you again... i hope you walk away and don't let me see you anymore if you really don't want me anymore... if not i couldn't let you go.... because i still love you...
do you know how much I love you???
do you know how much i care for you???
do you know how much I worry for you???
you don't know.... ='(
that's why you did to me like these....
people outside look at me.. they think i am alright... but actually not yet...
just a little thing... i can laugh like crazy.. why???
because i am deeply hurt... no one can help me...
i only can cure myself..but really takes a lot of times..
i laugh.. it's because i want to bring out my sadness away...
no one knows how deep my hurt is...
how painful it feels...
now i have my mummy and daddy ( my close friends)
they are kind to me... i hope we our relationship can last forever too..
i don't want to lose my mummy and daddy too.... you two are my close friends...
if ever one day, i have a boyfriend, i hope we four can go vacation together..^o^
lastly~~ just wondering.... love is fate from God.. or you made yourself???
and it's true love when you love a person so long although you know it's no more hope or puppy love when you said you willing to wait for someone but in the end you love someone else???
who can tell me??? ='(
i need an answer...~~
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