my love story...
wait!!
first of all... please don't be so emotional when you read this section kay...=)
just feeeeellll like doing thiiissss.... heheheeee....
and if i had mention your name... please don't be sensitive or what kayyy...=)
i won't murder you.. LOL...
you are still my friend..
okieesss... should I start??? xDD...
feel sooo.... awkward... *blush*
but i dont care.. this is my life..
whatever.. lol.. my blog my life.. xDD...=P
okieeess.. let me begin.. lololol...
let's start from young until now (my love first)
when i was 6 years old......
i met this boy.... his name is Darryl Yap...
we played everyday together in tadika..
so i was feeling that he is a kind person..
*what do you think kids think during that age huh???*
then whenever a boy who i dislike, he always disturb me..
thank God, Darryl helped and protected me..
so i started to like him.. *somehow on the spot like him.. lol*
then he told me that he liked me too.. so we sit together..
even during exams, i couldn't help myself but to give him all my answers..lol..
we also changed exam papers.. haha.. very funny right???
when i think back those days, i feel that we are like brothers and sisters.. lol..
but when i really think back the moments we spend together for that 1 year,
i felt him special for me.. until i still remember him..
but i guess he had forgotten me...
it's okiee.. i understand.... already 14 years. and yet we are not mature yet.. lol..
we are still kids...
then.... when i reach to standard 5 which is 10 years old...
i like this boy called, Nicholas... but somehow i didn't realize that my friend liked him too.
actually i used this advantage to get back my best friend because i'm her best friend since standard 1(7 years old)
yet, this girl just talked to her and always try to spend time with my best friend... so end up.. both of them together and my best friend even ignored me... =(
after that, teacher told me to sit with him...
she got jealous... i remember she did many bad things to me... sometimes i think back, i got hate her...
but i didn't actually.. because she is still my good friend... she always calls me out... lol... *strange right???*
but during that time was very conflict... HE told that he liked me NOT her... but i refuse to be with him...
because i don't have much feelings for him.. everyday we sit together, he tried his best to get my attention but end up i disappoint him..lol..xDD.... but end up.. i have feelings for him a little...
after one year which is 12 years old.... it's too late.. i have feelings for him.. but he liked another girl..
maybe he thinks that he has no hope for me.. because i was playing all the way...
but it's a nice experience because during 11 years old.. teacher sat us up and we played together everyday.. lol... nice one.. XD =P
okie... next....this is the time i'm being serious...
i met this boy... his name is Tan Liang.... the boy i really loved for very long.. even now...
I couldn't forget the love he gave me...
we met in a game called viwawa, that was during 14 years old.... and he started to talked to me....
so i'm being friendly and start talking to him...and we added in facebook each other...
but I didn't know that he had girlfriend... so i keep asking him... when he will play with me???
and for friends for sale in facebook... we kept buying each other.. lol...
and we are millions..millions in friends for sale.. xDD
then i start to got feelings for him... again i said, i don't know he had girlfriend that time....
so he started ignored me... i felt sad.. but hope he will come back one day...
i keep asking him questions, but he still ignored me... so sad right???=(
then i lost trust and hope from him....
but one day, when i was about to finish spm.. i was sick...
then that day was christmas day... guess how old am I...??? lol
then i met him back in fb.. he wished me merry christmas and happy new year..lol...
so i just wished him back.. as usual...
and i forgot the past... but i still remember who is he...
just that i confused.. because he look abit like my friend from elsewhere(can't tell)
then we started to talk everyday.. he used to find me to chat.. so just chat..lol..
moreover i was so free after spm. i can't work because mummy don't let.....
so...we develop our feelings each other...
until one day my parents find out and i talked to them... they told me that we still not yet meet him.. why want to accept him??? i said ' because i trusted him' *in my heart, i told myself... i wished i said this was really true* then my parents ignore.. they can't do anything...
until one day.. he came and met me.. and also met my parents... my parents got good impression for him...
so they accept me together with him... the most saddest moment was during he has to go back to Penang.. so I cried all the way to college.. lol.. so embrassing... xD.... because i still want him to stay...
he saw me go in the train.. and i saw his eyes.. his eyes started to be red... so do I... i quickly run another side... like a movie.. LOL... and walk out behind him...when the train close.. i saw him rubbing his eyes.. i knew it.... he don't want to leave.. i also don't want to leave.. we understand each other all the while.. and then when he turned back, he was so happy to see me...
do you know that??? if i was inside the train and the door close.... i will never see him again.. maybe few years later... *who knows*
so i took the opportunity to wait for him.. no matter how long it takes.. i still want to wait... even my class starts, i want to wait for him.. for the last... but he really did came.. i'm so happy.. happy in tears....
and yet i saw him walking away.... i force myself to smile.. if i cry... he won't leave and he will miss the bus... his mother will worry about him.. i know that his mother missed him.. so do his cousins... so i force the best of my smile... just act as fake smile... when i turn back.. i started to cry.. my tears rolling non-stop...
and i was thinking *when i'm going to meet you again*??? *hope that you won't change our mind*
change mind as in what??? won't change mind to let me go...will stay together...
but unfortunately... he left me for good... i don't know what i did to him...
but i knew i was too much sometimes... asking him too much questions which are very annoying....
i'm just worrying him.... but too late..
we can be together.. just time consuming.. but he didn't want to wait.. he even promised to be with me...i told him how much i loved him... even when a girl talked to him.. i jealous.. really...jealous... but i just silence because he needs freedom...
the relationship ends very sour... i couldn't say...out.. it's too sad to hear....
but i hope that...one day we still can get back together and be friends... at least friends... =)
so now...
i'm single... lol... but not a playgirl kayyyy..=)
i'm focusing on my career.. heheeeeeeeee....
i wanted to do something nice in future...^_^
okieee.... so now....
i was thinking that.. i hope the right boy/man will appear in front of me...
and will NEVER let me go anymore..
please... really.. i couldn't face the truth of the word 'break up', 'we are not meant to be together', 'just forget me' or whatsoever....
let me hear ' i will love you forever',' you will be mine forever',i'm yours forever... we are one forever... or whatsoever.. lol...
okieee.. time to sleep..... good nights.. will blog soon.=)
first of all... please don't be so emotional when you read this section kay...=)
just feeeeellll like doing thiiissss.... heheheeee....
and if i had mention your name... please don't be sensitive or what kayyy...=)
i won't murder you.. LOL...
you are still my friend..
okieesss... should I start??? xDD...
feel sooo.... awkward... *blush*
but i dont care.. this is my life..
whatever.. lol.. my blog my life.. xDD...=P
okieeess.. let me begin.. lololol...
let's start from young until now (my love first)
when i was 6 years old......
i met this boy.... his name is Darryl Yap...
we played everyday together in tadika..
so i was feeling that he is a kind person..
*what do you think kids think during that age huh???*
then whenever a boy who i dislike, he always disturb me..
thank God, Darryl helped and protected me..
so i started to like him.. *somehow on the spot like him.. lol*
then he told me that he liked me too.. so we sit together..
even during exams, i couldn't help myself but to give him all my answers..lol..
we also changed exam papers.. haha.. very funny right???
when i think back those days, i feel that we are like brothers and sisters.. lol..
but when i really think back the moments we spend together for that 1 year,
i felt him special for me.. until i still remember him..
but i guess he had forgotten me...
it's okiee.. i understand.... already 14 years. and yet we are not mature yet.. lol..
we are still kids...
then.... when i reach to standard 5 which is 10 years old...
i like this boy called, Nicholas... but somehow i didn't realize that my friend liked him too.
actually i used this advantage to get back my best friend because i'm her best friend since standard 1(7 years old)
yet, this girl just talked to her and always try to spend time with my best friend... so end up.. both of them together and my best friend even ignored me... =(
after that, teacher told me to sit with him...
she got jealous... i remember she did many bad things to me... sometimes i think back, i got hate her...
but i didn't actually.. because she is still my good friend... she always calls me out... lol... *strange right???*
but during that time was very conflict... HE told that he liked me NOT her... but i refuse to be with him...
because i don't have much feelings for him.. everyday we sit together, he tried his best to get my attention but end up i disappoint him..lol..xDD.... but end up.. i have feelings for him a little...
after one year which is 12 years old.... it's too late.. i have feelings for him.. but he liked another girl..
maybe he thinks that he has no hope for me.. because i was playing all the way...
but it's a nice experience because during 11 years old.. teacher sat us up and we played together everyday.. lol... nice one.. XD =P
okie... next....this is the time i'm being serious...
i met this boy... his name is Tan Liang.... the boy i really loved for very long.. even now...
I couldn't forget the love he gave me...
we met in a game called viwawa, that was during 14 years old.... and he started to talked to me....
so i'm being friendly and start talking to him...and we added in facebook each other...
but I didn't know that he had girlfriend... so i keep asking him... when he will play with me???
and for friends for sale in facebook... we kept buying each other.. lol...
and we are millions..millions in friends for sale.. xDD
then i start to got feelings for him... again i said, i don't know he had girlfriend that time....
so he started ignored me... i felt sad.. but hope he will come back one day...
i keep asking him questions, but he still ignored me... so sad right???=(
then i lost trust and hope from him....
but one day, when i was about to finish spm.. i was sick...
then that day was christmas day... guess how old am I...??? lol
then i met him back in fb.. he wished me merry christmas and happy new year..lol...
so i just wished him back.. as usual...
and i forgot the past... but i still remember who is he...
just that i confused.. because he look abit like my friend from elsewhere(can't tell)
then we started to talk everyday.. he used to find me to chat.. so just chat..lol..
moreover i was so free after spm. i can't work because mummy don't let.....
so...we develop our feelings each other...
until one day my parents find out and i talked to them... they told me that we still not yet meet him.. why want to accept him??? i said ' because i trusted him' *in my heart, i told myself... i wished i said this was really true* then my parents ignore.. they can't do anything...
until one day.. he came and met me.. and also met my parents... my parents got good impression for him...
so they accept me together with him... the most saddest moment was during he has to go back to Penang.. so I cried all the way to college.. lol.. so embrassing... xD.... because i still want him to stay...
he saw me go in the train.. and i saw his eyes.. his eyes started to be red... so do I... i quickly run another side... like a movie.. LOL... and walk out behind him...when the train close.. i saw him rubbing his eyes.. i knew it.... he don't want to leave.. i also don't want to leave.. we understand each other all the while.. and then when he turned back, he was so happy to see me...
do you know that??? if i was inside the train and the door close.... i will never see him again.. maybe few years later... *who knows*
so i took the opportunity to wait for him.. no matter how long it takes.. i still want to wait... even my class starts, i want to wait for him.. for the last... but he really did came.. i'm so happy.. happy in tears....
and yet i saw him walking away.... i force myself to smile.. if i cry... he won't leave and he will miss the bus... his mother will worry about him.. i know that his mother missed him.. so do his cousins... so i force the best of my smile... just act as fake smile... when i turn back.. i started to cry.. my tears rolling non-stop...
and i was thinking *when i'm going to meet you again*??? *hope that you won't change our mind*
change mind as in what??? won't change mind to let me go...will stay together...
but unfortunately... he left me for good... i don't know what i did to him...
but i knew i was too much sometimes... asking him too much questions which are very annoying....
i'm just worrying him.... but too late..
we can be together.. just time consuming.. but he didn't want to wait.. he even promised to be with me...i told him how much i loved him... even when a girl talked to him.. i jealous.. really...jealous... but i just silence because he needs freedom...
the relationship ends very sour... i couldn't say...out.. it's too sad to hear....
but i hope that...one day we still can get back together and be friends... at least friends... =)
so now...
i'm single... lol... but not a playgirl kayyyy..=)
i'm focusing on my career.. heheeeeeeeee....
i wanted to do something nice in future...^_^
okieee.... so now....
i was thinking that.. i hope the right boy/man will appear in front of me...
and will NEVER let me go anymore..
please... really.. i couldn't face the truth of the word 'break up', 'we are not meant to be together', 'just forget me' or whatsoever....
let me hear ' i will love you forever',' you will be mine forever',i'm yours forever... we are one forever... or whatsoever.. lol...
okieee.. time to sleep..... good nights.. will blog soon.=)
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