not happy, hurt, disappointed

sometimes i think back, i angry..
i angry, then i become sad...
sad already, then cry..
cry already, want to release out....
want to release out but scare hurt people feelings...
scare to hurt people feelings but couldn't control emotions..
couldn't control emotions, heart pain...
what should I do???
what i do also no use..
good or bad also want scold me..what the heck larh..=__=''

when i eat fast, you said i simply bite...
when i eat slow, you said i eat a lot...

when i go out with friends, you said i spend a lot of money,
when i never go out with friends, you said i stay at home like dumbo never go out...

when i go to work, you said very mafan must find you everyday and also keep on eye on me...
when i never go work, you say i lazy pig...

when i want to find job online, you don't let, you scare scam...
when i listen to you and never find job online, you said i very useless...

when you said asked for recommendation job, you said i have no luck but don't get the job....
when i get the recommendation job, if the boss treat me bad, you ask me to don't work...

when i listen to you choose accounting course, but i failed so many papers, you said i'm useless...
if i never listen to you and choose other course i like, you will neglect me and said i never listen to you..

when i help you to cook, you talked non-sense and scold me other things,
when i never help you to cook, you said i very lazy and don't want to help you

and more more more!!!... i couldn't think all...!!!

what also i can't do...
then what you want me to do???!!!
how i need to do in order me to satisfied you???!!
sometimes i couldn't understand..
why i have this kind of people love to nag for no reason..
you told me that you do this for my own good...
but i can see through or not???
talk also like shouting.. you know how patient am I???
if i want to fire up my words, i will..
but why i never do???
because i respect you!!...

please... i hope God will help me...
please make her satisfy....=(
i don't want to argue... these few days, very hurt..
just to keep my feelings inside..
never to tell anyone..
if i tell anyone also they won't care i guess..
they will just ignore my words...
i also don't understand friends...
when i tell out my problems, they will just ignore and change topic...
you know what???
this is call NOT a friend...
friends will share pain and problems..
friends will share joy and happiness....
we cry, we laugh, we play, we jump,.....

take note.... =___=''
i also don't want friends to ignore my problems..
whenever i say out my problems...
they will just ignore... this is  NOT call a friend...
if i really cannot stand this situation...
you will know what I will do!!

i will make sure you all......
REGRET WHOLE LIFE!!